Unemployed

So...today was bitter sweet. I was officially laid off. I knew it was coming. The company has gone from 119employees to 22 and I knew it was just a matter of time. It was sad to leave my good friends that I have made there (and really, they are amazing.) But it was nice to finally not have to be sick to my stomach each time there was a lay off day, wondering if it was going to be me. This time I knew. I was okay with it. It will be nice to spend some time home with VE and I am just hoping I can make some money. I have already applied for unemployment and should get my first check next week. I am very ready for something new,...though starting over is always a challenge. I have ajob interview next week. Not sure its something I am interested in, but it might be a good oppertunity. While I am looking, I will enjoy my time home with Vaughn-elise. My precious precious time with her that I have been longing for for so long now.

What I would really like to do is move out (nows not the time right?:) and get my own place, and have an in home day care (in apartment daycare maybe) I know of alot of people who are looking and it would allow me to stay home all day wiht Vaughn-elise. Then, if i had to pick up a few evening hours somewhere, i wouldnt feel guilty since i would be home with her all day. its a tough call....is this the time to pursu what i would love to do...to grasp this sweet time with her that i will never get back?? or should I look hard for a job and be miserable but make more money? Its such a difficult call...and there's no saying i would make more money.

I was pleased with my COBRA benefits that I have as an option. The company has to allow me to keep my current benefits until 10/1/2010!!!! thats awesome. And what i would be paying is only a tiny amount (if any) more than waht i am paying now....though I dont notice it now because i do not actually see it, it just comes out of my check...but still, i was thinking i would have to pay 500-1000 or more for my health issues. So that was abig relief...

I think it will be okay. I am feeling good about it. Ask me tomorrow when it sinks in a little more.


P.S. What did everyone think of the debate. i only got in on the last half but i thought it was great. i think both parties held their ground and I was impressed with both sides....though im still not sure i like either one of them.