Family time...

This evening has been great! My dear, sweet grandma and grandpa kinney came up and are staying the night. it is not often enough that i get to see them and they have only seen Vaughn-elise one time. It breaks my heart that she will not know her great grandparents as well as I would like her to. They just adore their grandchildren and great grandchildren to pieces. It is terribly sad to watch them age and to see their bodies and minds turn frail. i want so badly to preserve their minds, the moments they lived are ones I would love to see on video. When we were little we would go stay with them alot in the summer and we always loved it. I hope that those memories never fade in my mind. My grandma is becoming forgetful and it breaks me to hear her repeat the same thing over and over. it breaks my heart that her beautiful mind is worn out. My grandfathers body is wearing out, years of hard work and dedication to his farm and his country have worn on him. he is so sensitive these days and gets emotional about us grandkids each time he see's us. Thats hard to watch. I wonder what he thinks about. Does he wonder if he will see us again? Does he wonder what our childrens children will be like? Does he think about what we will be like at his age? I know they love us dearly and we love them dearly as well. it is so sad that we only live an hour away and yet only see them a few times a year. i need to make the effort to go down there more often. I know those are the days and memories i will forever cherish.
My grandpa Kinney and my grandpa wayne had the same birthday. October 8th. We celebrated early tonight with my grandpa with cake and ice cream. I know he appreciated it. I trully wish my grandpa wayne was here to celebrate his birthday as well. i miss him. alot. i think about him daily. I always thought that death or the ache gets easier with time. It doesnt though. I think you learn to supress the pain in order to move forward with life but the pain never trully lessens. you still long for that person, for their laugh, their scent, their smile, their hugs, seeing them, hearing them, kissing them, touching them. You still feel that incredible ache in your chest when you want them near. I do not know how my grandma functions day in and day out with that pain. Living in the same house that they shared all those years. Seeing all of his things. While i feel it comforts her to be surrounded by him and his life she must just weep with longing to have him walk through that front door. I know we all miss weep in absense of him.
We love you...gma and gpa kinney, gma margaret and gpa wayne. You are all trully trully special amazing wonderful people and we love you to the stars.