Thats how I feel today, i just keep having to remind myself to breathe. I went into town this morning realizing I had nothing to wear to the interview I had at 4. Came home, fed Vaughn, put her down for her nap (long drawn out process for some reason today- she was just really sad and didnt want anything but to be held. I cant complain about that. ) So, then while she napped I got ready and when I got out of the shower, she was screaming hysterically...she must have been scared or something. It broke my heart. She just cried and cried. I eventually got her back to sleep and she slept for only a short while, then it was time to take her to aunt mimis to go to my interview. The interview went well. Though, I secretly hope I dont get the job. Though everyone i know is discouraging my finding a way to stay home with her (why would anyone discourage a mom staying home with her baby as long as she can make money while doing it??????!!!!!) I would (I know I have mentioned this thousands of itmes) get my own place, stay home with VE and take in a few extra kids during the day. I WANT TO RAISE MY OWN DAUGHTER. I do not want someone else doing it for me. I am LOVING this time at home with her. She's so precious....so sweet.....so sneaky:) Then I had to quickly get my thigns gathered as I am teaching a digital photography class in WDM. LEave it to me to leave all of my printing to the last minute. My parents wont change thier ink on the computer. WHo knows why but there has been no ink in there for months. So, last minute- running late I rush into kinkos. Its pitch black in there. The power was out. So I rush to the library- couldnt download things onto their computers so I had to search the library (with ten minutes til class started) for someone who would pull up my email on their personal computer and print them out for me. Luckily I found someone. I was hoping to be at class early since I didnt know where I was going, nor did anyone whow as enrolled int he class so I was hoping to get there early enough to figure out where the room was and put up sings. I didnt, needless to say.
I was sad I missed the debate. It probably would have stressed me out even more, but I still dont know who to vote for...if anyone. I really dont like either candidate. I agree mostly with obama's ideas but part of me worries about voting for him too...im just uneasy about it but i really really dislike mccain. I am sooooo sick of hearing him talk about being a POW. playing the sympathy card will not make him a good president. I dont know...its a big responsiblity and i just dont know who to vote for. Why cant oprah be president? haha. Id vote for her.
Tomorrow we get Vaughn's pictures taken. hopfully. Of course they are scheduled in them middle of her nap so we'll see how she does.
PS My car has officailly been in the shop for 6 weeks. I am soooo irritated. I wish my dad would give me the guys number so i could call and rip him one. Its rediculous. He's playing the sympathy card too and Im sick of it. I need my car gosh darnit!!!!
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I totally understand you wanting to stay home with VE. What I want more than anything else in the entire world is to have babies and stay home with them. I did want to caution you, however. I had looked into starting a home day care six months ago or so, and it's more complex than I had thought. To be state licensed is hard. There are all these rules and guidelines you ahve to follow. You have to follow these meal plans and have so much space per child.
When I saw all that state rules I decided a legalized day care wasn't the way to go, so I started looking into how much I would have to charge and how much I would have to spend on food and then I'd have to buy special insurance. And then there's the space issue. Multiple kids need room to explore, and my house is just too small, especially considering I want to live there too (and not live amongst toys etc). The other thing is you need to have a reliable vehicle that will fit ALL of those children. In case of an emergency you have to be able to get a hurt/ill child to the doctor/hosiptal, but bring all the other kids along too. I decided I couldn't afford to buy a van and keep extra car seats on hand. You also need someone to come over as a back up should you or Vaughn get really sick sometime.
I'm not saying don't do it, I'm just letting you know the things that kept me from doing it.
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