ragged...

Thats how I feel today. I thought the day after losing my job would be just fantastic. But as the day goes on I feel like my energy is less than average. Vaughn woke up at 6:30 ish. I gave her a bottle, snuggled, fed her breakfast, played, went on a 30 minute walk (refreshing and somehting I will try to do everyday...) then came in, played, tried for 2 hours almost to get her to take her morning nap, she fell asleep for about 15-20 minutes then was back up, rudy came over, we went to lunch here at a little cafe in town (that was nice) then I thought I would go into town to try to get some needed things (something for pictures on sunday, vaughns birthday gifts, a few other things...) WRONG. We stopped first to see my dad at the office. She did great but I could tell she wanted to nap...now, of course, she wants to nap....so i head to old navy. Let me tell you about old navy for a minute. I love that place...when I am alone. it is NOT made for strollers and the clothes are ALL too close together (little hands can easily grab both sides of the stroller/cart and pull tons of stuff down, the dressing rooms are the WORST...cemement floors, barely big enough for one person let alone one and half, the floors are filty dirty full of crud and dust, there is a foot and a half opening from the ground to the door and it makes the perfect crawl spot for my daughter. I HATE them. I always have, even before I had a child..now its just worst. So I thought Id try it, knowing full well before I went in that this was a bad idea. Got undressed and vaughn was already trying to crawl out the stupid hole under the door. So there I am butt naked bending down repeatedly telling her no, pulling her back, standing her up, telling her no, all over again. I got one shirt on and she fell and wacked her poor head on the cement floor...this was followed by at least a solid ten minutes of crying and screaming....poor girl...poor me. There I am sweating bullets, just wanting to leave and she's such a mess I cannot even get dressed again. I was in the dressing room probably 15 minutes and only tried on one stinking shirt. I got dressed and walked out, hair a mess, clothes muffled, dust all over vaughn from crawling on the floor, and told the lady "This is not a childproof place, I will be back when I am alone." She just looked at me like " lady, you need a vacation!" Vaughn is really good normally but when she is tired she is tired right now. FRUSTRATING! So I didnt get ONE SINGLE THING DONE that I wanted to do....so another trip tomorrow has to be made....hopefully I can convince gma and gpa to watch her for a few hours while I get some stuff done.
What a crummy day. She's asleep now and I bet she will be for a long time since she really hasnt slept all day. I think I ll rest too...blah.