1. Read 1 book per month....big or little....inspirational or fiction....just something.
2. Read to Vaughn before bed most nights.
3. Take more trips even if just for the weekend.
4. Be less active in "social media" and more active in game playing, snuggling and playing house.
5. find budget ways to feed my family healthy, un processed foods each day.
6. Become more organized, more focused, less stressed.....in all areas of my life.
7. Become financially able to stay home with Vaughn and do my photography business "full time".
8. I will focus more on a presentable outer me. I want to feel good about my appearance again and I owe that not only to me, but to my clients, my husband and my daughter. I really want to be the best me....inside and outside...and I think 2011 is the year to do it!
9. Ideally I would love to grow our family- if God choses this is right....whether adoption or natural.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
XMAS and New Years 2010
What a beautiful fun Christmas we had. Vaughn's intense fear of santa subsided long enough for gifts to be enjoyed and she decided after opening her "cat piano" that "santa IS A nice GUY afterall!" We will have to see how next year goes as far as that:)
We spent lots of great time with family and nothing is more precious than that around the holidays. Rudy was able to have XMAS eve off this year which never happens so we were feeling really blessed to have him here. Aside from a Christmas kitchen fire (we're all fine and I will remember to put a sheet pan under bubble bread next time) we had so much fun relaxing, laughing and playing together. I love my sweet little family.
We got my parents a Wii fit and I cant tell you how funny it was watching my dad play those games! We had a blast!
This weekend we will be going to Illinios to visit my Gma Margaret. I am shooting a wedding new years eve and then we'll head the rest of the way. I am trying to think of my 2011 NY resolutions. I try not to put too much into them because typically by Jan 14th I have forgotten them and moved on to more practical life things...but I am a believer in goals and so I yearly follow the tradition of creating a resolution list....soon to come.
We spent lots of great time with family and nothing is more precious than that around the holidays. Rudy was able to have XMAS eve off this year which never happens so we were feeling really blessed to have him here. Aside from a Christmas kitchen fire (we're all fine and I will remember to put a sheet pan under bubble bread next time) we had so much fun relaxing, laughing and playing together. I love my sweet little family.
We got my parents a Wii fit and I cant tell you how funny it was watching my dad play those games! We had a blast!
This weekend we will be going to Illinios to visit my Gma Margaret. I am shooting a wedding new years eve and then we'll head the rest of the way. I am trying to think of my 2011 NY resolutions. I try not to put too much into them because typically by Jan 14th I have forgotten them and moved on to more practical life things...but I am a believer in goals and so I yearly follow the tradition of creating a resolution list....soon to come.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
I have been home sick for 4 days...felt sick for 6 and am finally finally feeling better. Bronchitis on the verge of pnuemonia- fever and the pukes to boot. I have REALLY enjoyed being home. I have not gotten much done up until today since I could barely sit up but its back to work tomorrow. Hopefully soon I wont have to say that anymore but for now- I'll force a smile and go back. Ugh!
Being home has made me restless. I watched both Under the Tuscan Sun and Eat Pray Love and let me tell you- I think my soul is on a winery in Tuscany! I would LOVE to do that...for a year, or two or three. How amazing, peaceful and settling would that be!?
I feel like most of the time I spend running...in circles....forgetting everything about who I am and losing myself every.single.day. I know some would say "well then just be you." its not that I am not. I am. But between early mornings, working full days, raising a toddler and crashing at a usual 9 pm only to get up and do it all over again (or stay up all hours of the night editing photos) I feel like....Where am I. I feel like I need to create....I need to paint, I need to sing, I need to read good books, I need to be in complete silence, or alone with my music or have hours to sit and write.....I remember when I used to do that....how amazing I felt....how "centered" I felt....Now, Now I just feel like a ball of chaos, always spinning my wheel trying to get "there" and getting no where. I told rudy, I dont feel that I even have time for any routines with Vaughn- No time to sit and be with her doing things we love. I sometimes just feel like I am losing my grip and the precious moments that I long for. With my daughter, with my husband, with myself. When Rudy and I fight I often wonder Am I mad at him? Or am I mad at me for losing myself in his presence? Am I mad that even he cant stop me from getting lost in the maddness?
Vaughn-elise was walking across the room the other day. I was on the couch doing who knows what and she turned and looked at me....walked a few more steps and turned and walked toward me. She got VERY close to my face, touched my forehead and said "Mama, you have the most beaut-eous eyes. They are soo colorful and sparkly." and then she kissed my cheek and went along with her way. When is the last time someone said something so precious to me? When did I stop and notice someone's eyes? When's the last time I stopped to REALLY notice anything?
Wake up Meghan, Your life is not going to slow down....so YOU NEED TO!
Being home has made me restless. I watched both Under the Tuscan Sun and Eat Pray Love and let me tell you- I think my soul is on a winery in Tuscany! I would LOVE to do that...for a year, or two or three. How amazing, peaceful and settling would that be!?
I feel like most of the time I spend running...in circles....forgetting everything about who I am and losing myself every.single.day. I know some would say "well then just be you." its not that I am not. I am. But between early mornings, working full days, raising a toddler and crashing at a usual 9 pm only to get up and do it all over again (or stay up all hours of the night editing photos) I feel like....Where am I. I feel like I need to create....I need to paint, I need to sing, I need to read good books, I need to be in complete silence, or alone with my music or have hours to sit and write.....I remember when I used to do that....how amazing I felt....how "centered" I felt....Now, Now I just feel like a ball of chaos, always spinning my wheel trying to get "there" and getting no where. I told rudy, I dont feel that I even have time for any routines with Vaughn- No time to sit and be with her doing things we love. I sometimes just feel like I am losing my grip and the precious moments that I long for. With my daughter, with my husband, with myself. When Rudy and I fight I often wonder Am I mad at him? Or am I mad at me for losing myself in his presence? Am I mad that even he cant stop me from getting lost in the maddness?
Vaughn-elise was walking across the room the other day. I was on the couch doing who knows what and she turned and looked at me....walked a few more steps and turned and walked toward me. She got VERY close to my face, touched my forehead and said "Mama, you have the most beaut-eous eyes. They are soo colorful and sparkly." and then she kissed my cheek and went along with her way. When is the last time someone said something so precious to me? When did I stop and notice someone's eyes? When's the last time I stopped to REALLY notice anything?
Wake up Meghan, Your life is not going to slow down....so YOU NEED TO!
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