Funny Funny Girl

So Vaughn has been getting very sassy and frankly its hillarious.
Last night I put her to sleep and said "night night miss thang." and gave her kisses and turned to walk away. She stood up and clear as day said "nigh night miss THANG." My 17 month old daughter told called her mama miss thang! What a stinker. It was so super cute though. And she has been into picking her nose and its the funniest thing...gross, but funny. I dont encourage it and tell her to get a kleanex. Luckily she already gets how to blow her nose. I think most kids just sniff but somehow she gets the blowing concept and will do it on her own if I give her a kleanex. Glad she learned that early!

Not so good thing. I think she is bullimic! she gags herself to the point of puking several times per day, usually after a big meal. WHAT? Why does she do this? She is relentless and will not stop. Last night I actually had to hold her hands behind her back while she screamed and cried because she wanted to gag herself. That worries me! Any suggestions?

Good News

Well....good news... I GOT THE TOWNHOME. WHHOOOP. Exciting!!

Its bitter sweet, I have enjoyed being here and it will be sad to leave since this is where we have been the last year. Vaughn-elise has had almost all of her firsts so far here. That is hard for me to leave those memories...not that i am going far, just down the street, but its just a sentimental thing. I have shared a room with her for a year and will now be in seperate rooms...which is a good thing. just a sad thing for me. I am ready to start making a home for us...a life on our own with our own activities and time together in a "non communal" living sort of way. She will miss my parents and seeing my brother everyday. I just feel there are so many transitions for her. Her sitter is going back to work the end of may so she will be going to her FOURTH sitter in under two years. That breaks my heart for her. Just when she gets comfortable....bam, she gets ripped away and has to resettle. I am not sure where she will go next. I have a couple in homes to look into of people I know and there are some centers around my work..which i hate hate hate the thought of her in a center. I HATE that. But it might be best at this point. You know they arent going anywhere, but you miss out on so much by being in a center I believe. SIGH. I have always SUCKED at changes so no matter how small they are always difficult for me. I am very excited though and have been picking up things all year for "sometime when i move out" and its excited to start think about where I will put things and how I want to decorate etc. I have a whole list of things I still need to get and it will be fun because V will have not only her own room/nursery but also her own toy room. the townhome is three bedroom and 1.5 bath so she will be able to have a room just for sleeping (a STRONG belief of mine....no TVS or distractions in the bedroom...it should be a place for relaxing and sleeping.) and then a seperate room for all her toys. I want it to be a super fun room for her. I picked up a baby blue pot and pan at TJMAX and have a color theme in mind for the kitchen. I have my fears and worries of living alone...what if something happens and i get scared, what if I ihave nightmares like i do several times a week and i KNOW im there alone, what If I fall and V is alone, what if someone breaks in, what if what if what if.....but I am trying my best to focus on the fact that this is a fresh new start for us...and Im doing it on my own. I am intentionally choosing how i want our life to be and how want to raise her and I want her to see that I will do whatever I have to to make the best life for her and I, I want her to know that her mother is strong and that I love her more than she will ever ever be able to comprehend. I want her to feel safe with me and I want to show her that we CAN do it just the two of us if we have to.

I will keep you posted as to the move in but at this point it looks like april 15th...possibly sooner. I am excited to see it finished since when i went it was cement floors and bare dry wall. It will be fun to be in a brand spanking new place.

Feeling axious

Do you ever have that anxious feeling? Normally, i dont handle change too well...but lately- I am craving it. Wanting to start fresh, I want a new hair cut/color, i want to deep clean and get rid of all my old stuff and not look back, I want to move out and decorate a special place for Vaughn. I have all sorts of ideas of things I want to do with her...I have abunch of canvases in the basement and a ton of old paint and i want her to paint them and hang then in her next room. I want her to have that confidence in herself to make beautiful things and feel good about it. She has really gotten into colorig lately and is working harder at controlling. I printed some spring pictures to help give her some direction and she sat on my floor and colored for AN HOUR while I cleaned. THats pretty good for her age, and she knew what colors seh wanted and could tell me some of them while she was doing it. She is just growing up so incredibly fast. I cannot believe it, the things she says and does is just amazing and she is so nuturing. She "nubble nubble" (nuzzle nuzzle) her babys and takes then in the car and rocks them to sleep and tells me they are stinky...she'll be a great little mom some day! She has trully been enjoying being outside lately, running. In fact she took off sunday and ran her little self down to the park, rudy followed her and they played for quite some time. She just wanted to run like the wind. It was so funny watching heri n her puffy little coat running so fast.
This weekend we are going to the QC for rudy's neice's pool party bday party. I think we are going to try to stop at the childrents museum in iowa city and let her explore that. I am excited to go to the universitees book store and get some new hawk tshirts. They ahve a great deal there. buy one get 3 free. I am going to get all of rudy and my old tshirts taht need replaced and make them into a quilt for Vaughn-elise. I think it would be neat for her to have that, and it would be nice for us to clear out our closets:) though she would never love it like she loves her "bucket" (green blanket).

Anywyas, I am axious to get to the doctor about my foot but unfortunatly cannot go until May 1st. Its really wearing on me and i am getting tired of the pain. I am tempted to say screw it and start training anyways but dont want to make it worse. I am going to walk on the treadmill tonight and see how it feels tonight and tomorrow, if it does okay I will try 3 days a week walking 5 miles to see how it handles that and then start working my way up.
Okay, Im babbling. I am going to go finish a paper I have to do for school.

SPRING YAY!

Enjoy this absolutely beautiful weather!!! I sure am!
I look at a townhome (A different one) in adel today that would be perfect for V and I. Its 200 less than the one I was going to rent in WDM and will be COMPLETELY new. In fact when I went to day it was gutted, fresh dry wall was up and the new doors were in their boxes. He is putting on new siding and tearing out the patio and sidewalk to tile it. All new appliances and cupboards iwll be in next week. It is 3 bed, 1.5 bath and would be really a great place for us. I am excited. HE basically said I can have it if I want it but he still wants references. Sounds too good to be true. I even know them (sorta...she used to be in my moms sorority and worked at the HS) so I know it would be a good landlord. Move in would be April 15th. I was hoping to be in our new place by Easter but I suppose if it will save me 200 per month I can wait. I just hope to hear back from them soon to hear if they will let me rent it. Also, it has a nice backyard and he is fencing it in so that will be great and it has a back patio and a garage!

Thats about all the news to write. V and I went to town and ran some errands today. ITs fun to finally be able to start picking things up that I see that like and know that soon I will have my own place to put them in. Kinda fun. I am excited for garage sale season but dreading getting my stuff together for one...such a chore.

I think when V wakes up the golf cart will be yelling our names. Enjoy today!

I forgot to mention our Irish party last night. corned beef, cabbage, carrots and irish mashed potato with pots of gold to boot. Fun time. Vaughn even visited me at work and brought me green flowers. How fun. I love being irish!

poor Vaughnie is puking. Again. Poor thing just doesn't know what to do and i dont know what to do with her sickness!
Papa is staying home with her tomorrow, I WISH I had the time off to stay with her when she is sick. It breaks my heart. hopefully tomorrow will be better.

I got approved for a townhome rental today. Its more than I was hoping to spend but still do-able so I am going to look at a few more places and then decide. Hope to be moved in by the first. I would like to celebrate easter in our new place...where ever that may be. It will be weird, we have lived here since Vaughn was 6 months old!!! thats insane. Its time we get on our own. We've been here almost a year so our welcome has been overstayed. I worry about having the rent again but its a healthy step. The new place is just about a half mile from my work. There are lots of daycares around and since V's sitter is done doing childcare in May, I will have to find somewhere else for her anyways. I was hoping to have her go to an inhome but I dont know anyone who does childcare in home that we can afford. Rudy is thinking of switching to Nationwide instead of ING...good and bad. His money would be better but his hours would go back to night hours....2-11 he thinks so that would be good and bad. Good for Vaughn and the childcare situaion , she wuold just have to go from 2-4:30...and she would get to spend lots of time with him. Bad for me to never get to see him or do family dinners or movie nights etc unless its the weekend. :( Its a time of changes.

I am looking forward to getting insurance because my foot is trully killing me. I am trying to do all I know and trying to baby it some but its very very painful.

Well tomorrow is food day, again. So I have to go bake.

I cannot cannot believe this weekend is over. You have got to be kidding me. Yesterday I got alot done, errands run, groceries bought, laundry done (some of it) and alot of good play time in with Vaughnie. Today- somehow went extremely fast. My mom wanted to take vaughn to church with her so I let her. I have a hard time giving her up on the weekends since I see her so little during the week but I knew she would enjoy going. I got showered and decided while I was free I could run in and go tanning. I have been wanting to start tanning again for a while now and have just not had the time get in and start going. So i did. Came home and since V went to church she missed her morning nap so as soon as she got home from church she crashed hard and slept for 3 hours... I fell asleep 15 min before she woke up and rudy got there seconds before she woke up and so he has been here all evening. We played kick ball in the yard with her and went down to the park. It was such a blast and she had so much fun, laughing uncontrollably everytime we kicked the ball. She went down the slide with rudy and thought that was a blast. She is getting really into "fun" and playing. Its sweet. I decided I was craving Peruvian spaghetti so I made that for dinner and from that point on V was very emotional. She has been having 4-5 blowout diapers a day/night so she has a horrible diaper rash and I think that was really bothering her. After dinner I went to put her in the bath and noticed that she had diahreah down her pants...probably why she was so craky. It is the meds she is on for her ear infection and she has until Friday to be on them. i dont know if she can handle another 5 days of the horrible diahreah. It doesnt smell so its hard to know when she does it but it is BAD. the worst she's ever had. Poor girl. Her tummy just gurgles! She is in bed now and I am about to take a bath and quietly pick up the bedroom. I am feeling overwhelmed and like instead of tanning I should have b been cleaning or something....feeling like I cant get ahead and frustrated that I cannot find a new place to live that is in the area...waukee/adel and in my price range....grr...

Gotta say though, this weather is just beautiful! Its going to suck being in a training room with no windows all week..im going to want to be outside playin with Vaughn!


Ok, off to the bath...toodles.

welcome spring

Gorgeous. Today is just gorgeous! Vaughn did so well with me running errands today and crashed when we got home. We got to cruise around with the windows down and not run from store to store but walk a little slower to enjoy being outside. It just puts me in a fantastic mood.

I dont know if i wrote about it or not but I am having the most pain in my foot/heel. I feel like I may have broken a small bone but Im not sure. I cant imagine what would be causing it but it is super painful whenever I walk, just yesterday it started hurting up into my ankle and lower shin whenever i move my foot. Grrr. Wish I had some insurance...not til may 1st. I want to start training will have to wait...boo!

St pattys day is just three days away. I LOVE St patty's day. I am very proud of my Irish Heritage and always get very excited about holidays so its a great one for me! I would love to go to Ireland someday. this Tuesday is my night to cook dinner, so I have decided to go all out...I picked up a bunch of St Patricks Day decorations today and I am making slow cooker corned beef and cabbage, and Irish potatoes and onions and irish drinks and dessert. Yummy!

Ok, well i should scat. Gotta keep cleaning...

TGIF~

Today was super long! Thats an understatement. I woke up late and on the wrong side of the bed and my emotions got the best of me from that point on. I was excited to get off and see Vaughnie. Rudy watched her today and said she was pretty emotional. Her medicine is giving her raging diahreah to the point of going through several outfits a day and she now has horrible horrible blistery diaper rash. her poor bottom looks raw! My parents are out of town this weekend so I plan to enjoy my time with vaughn and get some cleaning and laundry done. I have been dying to clean out my car and get stuff ready for a future garage sale. I have several bins of stuff in my trunk because i dont know where else to put them so I need to get them marked and put them somewhere. I want to get stuff packed becuase now that I have a job I am in full force lookiing for a place for V and I. Im feeling exhausted and like Im rambling so i will go.

Hope to night calls for a nice bubble bath and some good sleep. HAve a great weekend everyone! Spring is on its way! Whoop whoop!

Here are some of VE's pictures we got taken. We didnt purchase any of these exact pictures but I will be sending them out soon- she did so good, especially for having a double ear infection...poor babe!

This is my favorite and i dont know why we didnt get it!? I may have to go back and buy just one of these...too cute!

on the mend

We are finally on the mend around here! YIPPEE. Last night Rudy came over and we both sat over the puke bucket (attractive picture huh?)
and I went to bed early. We woke this morning refreshed and rudy called midday to say he was feeling much better too. Must have been the 24 hour bug for us. Vaughnies meds seem to be working well and although she is still very cranky and cuddly she is acting much better. I am in the mood to plan lately...a party...a holiday....a vacation...something. I love planning. some friends and i are planning a camping trip (maybe) the end of April and Im excited abotu that. We will be going to lake Macbride i iowa city. Two for the price of one!

im sustaining work...though it is very boring and i miss vaughnie all day....friday is payday which will be a nice reward for sitting in a basement reading insurance manuals all day...YAWN.... art major? insurance? what?

So I found out today we didnt get the duplex i was wanting..after 2.5 weeks of waiting, she chose someone else...dangit! So now I have to scramble, I am ready to get my own place and have been purchasing things (furniture etc) in hopes of getting that place so I have to find someplace fairly quickly. Id love ot live in des moines but with the sitter here in adel that makes for alot of driving...we'll see what happens i guess.

No big plans this week. I am itching to get back to the farm and hoping I can find a weekend soon. If nothing else, we will be going over memorial day weekend to see my sweet gma. miss her lots!

I am going to go try to find some irish recipes for dinner next tuesday. yummy! Go Green!

sick day

Last night was rotten. Ve and myself both fell asleep around 6:30 and she woke up around 11 screaming. That was the rest of the night. My mom would rock her, my dad, myself, nothing seemed to work. Id sing to her and she would fall asleep and then within a few minutes was up screaming. I felt like crap too so I can only imagine how she felt. She had a fever all night and today I decided to call in to work and take her to the doctor. I felt bad because ive only been there three weeks but like I told them, a sick baby comes first. sure enough, she has a double ear infection. Those stinkin ears of hers never leave her alone. Poor girl. She is on meds now and is in bed. i feel horrible for her. My ears are hurting me today and ive had migraines all week....I can only imagine how much pain she must be in.

Thats all I have for now. Sick baby, sick mama. No fun.

What a fast busy weekend!!!! Its sort of a blur and I HATE that. Saturday was a very busy day. Ran alot of errands, had church and stayed up late watching fireproof...good message, horrible acting that distracted me fro the whle point. Today we hung out with Rudy all day which was super nice, we havent gotten to do that often and we miss it. We got Vaughn-elise's easter pictures today at portrait innovations. Let me just say that I am sick and tired of that place. They admitted to me after me complaining about waiting an hour and having mass chaos in the waiting room only to be pulled out of the room we were in to wait another half hour and go into another room and vaughn having mulitple breakdowns and falling asleep practically right before pictures that they intentionally double book all apointments in case someone doesnt show up. they said its is like that there everyday. I made it clear that it was not fair to the families paying ALOT of money for their picture or to the poor children who are expected to sit pretty and stay clean in the waiting room to do that. I was very upset when we left. This is the 3rd visit there and i think it will be our last. Its just not worth it. Her pictures turned out cute for the most part and we got a few great poses of her...though i regret which ones i got on a couple because it was so chaotic and rushed that i felt i just had to choose and get the heck out of there. of course it was going to be another hour before they were printed and they are closed mondays so I said to forget it and id be back on Tuesday to pick them up.

tomorrow is back to the weekly grind of work...I have a midterm after work again (last one, thank the lord) and the rest of the week looks bare which will be super nice!

tonight I am tired, loving the storms but wishing it was warmer outside and not ready for the weekend to be over. blah.

What a busy week. For some reason i feel like i have not had one minute to think this week. I am still not in the swing of being back to work and find mornings, and evenigns difficult to get done what i need to get done and still have time to enjoy vaughna and take abreather myself. Its been nutso. I have a to do list the length of my arm and only two days this weekend to get it done! i was hoping to hear back about the duplex this week but nothing yet...keep your fingers crossed! We went to the taste of homes cooking school last night, it was awesome. so much fun! Amanda won a great prize and the rest of us still got our free cooking magazines and goodies in our bag. It was great and the demonstrator was so fun to watch she was funny and very casual. Some weird old ladies in the front kept doing the wave randomly. That threw me off and made me laugh and wonder how much they had to drink before they got there!

VE puked twice last night. Once in my bed once in hers. Its so random and strange and I think its due to the snot she has right now in her stomach, throat etc but its weird. WE went do dinner and walking out tonight she threw up again. So odd. but she acts fine so i dont know.

tomorrow is a busy day- rudy and myself have eye apts. I dont have eye insurance but dont see the point really. You get like a 20% discount...not worth paying all year for so we will see if i get more glasses or hold off. I need to get my nails refilled before they fall off and I bought a chair/ottomon set on craigslist for whatever place I end up getting (I dont have any of my own furniture..yikes, might be sleeping on the chair! Its a chair and half which i have been wanting for years and fo und a great deal so that was nice. Dont know wher eI will put it in the mean time but ill figure something out! then I have church tomorrow night....

Sunday we have her easter pictures and sometime this weeeknd i need to find time to clean, get groceries, put away laundry and spend some good time with my girly!!
Sigh, its going to go fast I can tell already. but for now I am going to put in a movie and pretend i have nothing better to do!

new shots of my model

Vaughny sporting my vest with her crazy bed head hair. (makes me feel HUMONGOUS that my vest, though big on me, is this huge on her! )
What a toddler!

Being a good mommy!

playing with her rain stick we made the week before I went back to work...

Happy Sunday, not alot to report here. Last night rudy kept vaughn-elise while I went to church with molly. He was so happy to get to have her since he wont see her until Friday (possibly an evening before then) since he changes work schedules tomorrow.

today vaughn-elise woke up wheezing, coughing....dont know what to do with that little one! WE took her to the doctor last week thinking she was sick and they said she wasnt and just had Fifths disease.....but he thought it was ending. So, those symptoms seem cleared up but that darn runny nose wont go away! She is doing ok, just defiant and whiney.

Also, I just wanted to post hwo to donate online to my 3 Day Walk fund in case anyone was interested in making a donation.

You just go to www.the3day.com and click the donate tab in the upper right corner. It will have you search a name (Meghan Kinney) and then it will come up. currently there is only one listed but incase there is ever another one that signs up, our team name for the time being is Pink Pride. It should then allow you to click on the name and make your donation using a credit/debit card. Thanks in advance if you do this.

Have a great weekend everyone.