Monday, March 23, 2009

Feeling axious

Do you ever have that anxious feeling? Normally, i dont handle change too well...but lately- I am craving it. Wanting to start fresh, I want a new hair cut/color, i want to deep clean and get rid of all my old stuff and not look back, I want to move out and decorate a special place for Vaughn. I have all sorts of ideas of things I want to do with her...I have abunch of canvases in the basement and a ton of old paint and i want her to paint them and hang then in her next room. I want her to have that confidence in herself to make beautiful things and feel good about it. She has really gotten into colorig lately and is working harder at controlling. I printed some spring pictures to help give her some direction and she sat on my floor and colored for AN HOUR while I cleaned. THats pretty good for her age, and she knew what colors seh wanted and could tell me some of them while she was doing it. She is just growing up so incredibly fast. I cannot believe it, the things she says and does is just amazing and she is so nuturing. She "nubble nubble" (nuzzle nuzzle) her babys and takes then in the car and rocks them to sleep and tells me they are stinky...she'll be a great little mom some day! She has trully been enjoying being outside lately, running. In fact she took off sunday and ran her little self down to the park, rudy followed her and they played for quite some time. She just wanted to run like the wind. It was so funny watching heri n her puffy little coat running so fast.
This weekend we are going to the QC for rudy's neice's pool party bday party. I think we are going to try to stop at the childrents museum in iowa city and let her explore that. I am excited to go to the universitees book store and get some new hawk tshirts. They ahve a great deal there. buy one get 3 free. I am going to get all of rudy and my old tshirts taht need replaced and make them into a quilt for Vaughn-elise. I think it would be neat for her to have that, and it would be nice for us to clear out our closets:) though she would never love it like she loves her "bucket" (green blanket).

Anywyas, I am axious to get to the doctor about my foot but unfortunatly cannot go until May 1st. Its really wearing on me and i am getting tired of the pain. I am tempted to say screw it and start training anyways but dont want to make it worse. I am going to walk on the treadmill tonight and see how it feels tonight and tomorrow, if it does okay I will try 3 days a week walking 5 miles to see how it handles that and then start working my way up.
Okay, Im babbling. I am going to go finish a paper I have to do for school.

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