small update.

I am not sure if anyone even will read my blog ever again since I am sooo bad about updating. Things are busy. Good, but busy. I have started a photography company called GraceJuliet Photography and have been pretty busy with that. I am also, of course, planning a wedding :)

Which- story about the wedding planning:: 

Went to pick up my dress and it was ALL WRONG. I am guessing the sales lady just wanted a sale because she measured me (two people measured me) and sold me a dress that only went up to "x" size. I needed that size. Well, they ASSURED me it would fit great and then..nope. It was AT LEAST 3 or 4 sizes too small if not more. The seems were all off, and to make matters worse it was tapered at the ankles, hugged every buldge and dimple i have. It was nasty. I just sat and cried and cried and cried. Long story short i went to another store and bought one off the rack that needs ZERO alterations. (minus having a bra sewn in...which is not an alteration- just something I want.) and its SO much more what I wanted than the first dress. I have no idea why I bought the first stupid one anyways....but i got my money back. I think they measured me with a yardstick and not a tape measure. it was NUTS how far off they were.

ANYWAYS, only about 5.5 weeks left.....still a TON left to do! We decided on a caterer this weekend. Not what  I wanted but great food and fits the budget. Check. Need to order the cupcakes and cake this week. and decide on table decor. phew. I hate to say it because I am a planner in my soul, but I am ready for this to be done. I am ready to be married, on our honeymoon, and then back. 

I am sooo sick of this summer-ready for fall, cool weather, sweats and hawkeye football!!! Vaughn is doing great and getting soo big and so smart. I am suprised daily when I pick her up that she looks like she has grown! She reminds us every.single.day that we are getting married and she is going to be the "flower garden.!!!!" haha. precious. 
She is my flower garden.


Sorry no pics- I have some but my computer is having some issues with the battery so I am on Rudy's.

We are sick. sick. sick. Ve was up allll stinkin night crying that her legs hurt. (some times I think they are really bothering her, sometimes I think its a "go to" for her when she's not feeling good...she just blames her legs. Maybe she has restless leg syndrome. She will say they itch, they hurt, they pinch, they scratch....could be growing pains I suppose but she has been having this problem since she was old enough to say "leggies...ouch." Breaks my heart. And Rudy's. He is MUCH better with middle of the night wake ups than I am. For that, I give him huge praise. He is right there the moment she cries and I am one who does.not.do.well with no sleep. I mean, I am impatient, out of it, cranky, loopy. Plus, I am sick as a dog right now- cant breathe, feel like I am swollowing glass chips, cough. V has a bad cough too. Yuck. I cant think Rudy enough for getting up all umph-teen-times last night with V. I was awake, but he rocked, bounced, "sang" and rubbed her poor legs. He's a great dad.

I had to call in today, as I can barely talk and wouldnt be suprised if I get in trouble for it tomorrow. I dont care at this point.

So much wedding stuff we need to get done this week. SO MUCH! I am hoping to get feeling better at least temporarily to get some stuff done, phone calls made, prices quoted and plans made.

I am getting SO excited for the honeymoon. Still no clue where we're going but it will just be nice to lay around, shop around, eat new foods...I . AM. Pumped!

WE will be getting our new stove soon- for those who care:) The warrenty people finally gave rudy a dollar amount they will pay and I think we can get a nice little stove for that amount....SO excited to be able to cook again:)
Gonna go blow my nose...have a good day

Planning extravaganza

My mind is one big plan...one HUGE calendar....one small countdown. This year is B-U-S-Y! I am currently planning the following.
August 10th, a baby shower for a work friend
Sept 5th, My wedding
Sept 6th-11th- our honeymoon- and even though Rudy is planning a keeping secret the where and what, I am thinking about leaving Vaughn, what to pack for all three of us, my hatred and fear of flying, my hatred and fear of the water, my first time away from Vaughn for more than overnight, etc etc etc.
Sept 18th- a wedding my sister and I are doing photography for.
October 9th- Vaughns 3rd birthday carnival  and the Light the Nights charity walk
October 10th- a wedding Amanda and I are doing photography for
October 15th -Vaughns actual birthday and a friends wedding I am in in Nebraska
October 16-17th-Illinios color Drive
October 31st- planning rudy's 30th birthday celebration....


Thats not even November which only picks up from there....that doesnt include other possible weddings we may be doing or other charity events I am signed up for.
I love planning, it my my "soul" and it makes me happy to plan things. I just love it. today though I am feeling over stretched. My mind looks like a childs drawing and makes no sense...I am mixing birthday details with wedding details with charity dollars with photography ideas. Major Fail!

on top of it all V and I are sick. Coughs, colds, the blahs.

Last night we went to the Cubs game for my work. We had lots of fun chatting with friends and V met a new friend (a daughter of a friend of mine ) named Payton. all night she called her Franklin. I guess they sound alike? They were cute, fireworks were pretty, conversation was good and the night was a success. Check out the pictures.

devil got your tongue?

Confession. He has mine. ALOT lately.  I am trying so hard to stay calm, be smart with my words instead of sharp with them. To be gentle instead of manipulative. To be kind and possitive instead of rash and mean....I.am.failing. miserably.  I feel bad for everyone around me.  I think I am just over stretched, over tired, too much on my mind- too  much o n my plate. too much anxiety.  I feel like I should go to bed and stay there for a few weeks until I am out of this stupid funk. Oh and someone tore up our garden that we weorked sooooooo hard on and vaughn was sooooo proud of. I am guessing its the same people I think are slashing my tires. I think it is the same kids who knock on our door 4 times a week to see if they can mow are yard and who TORE THE DOOR KNOCKER OFF TODAY  when we didnt answer the door (we were arguing and i was watching them from the peek whole.) I am going to watch closely and then call the cops. Vaughn cried when she saw the garden and so did I. It was growing soo huge, thenp-everythig was pulled out and thrown. stupid jerks.