Home alone!

My parents have gone on Vacation...good for them, and a change for me! I have not been in a home by myself since....well...since North Carolina. Its different and slightly freaky at night. Though after my laundry basket baracades go up and the doors are locked and double checked- I do okay:) They will be home tomorrow evening, then I can sleep soundly.

I have been in a baking frenzy the past three days. Something has come over me! Bruchetta chicken, garlic pizza, homemade pear and applesauce, sweet potatoe fries and I just put pumpkin bread in the oven. Oh the smells and tastes of fall! I do LOVE them. This weather is gorgeous.

Things at work are a mess...just when i think things cannot fall apart anymore, they do. it makes me not want to go in...to call in sick and stay home with my daughter. I want to do that anyways but its so much harder to go in when the situation is sucky. Know of a good job? Shoot them my way!

Vaughn-elise is doing great! She has such a fun personality. I have said at every stage of her life "this is my favorite." i just love watching her learn and grow and she is learning what "games" are and what teasing is and how to be difiant and she things its funny. She loves trying to run away while your chasing her but she loves even more to be caught and tickeled. I often wake in the middle of the night and go over to her cribside and watch her sleep, I touch her cheek and someitmes pick her up and kiss her and sway with her and tell her i love her. I feel like my love for her is more than I know how to handle and I desperately want her to know how I feel and how perfect i think she is. i sometime bring her in bed with me becuase I want to be close to her and I dread her bedtime because I know my evening with her is done. I want her to stay up with me, but I know it is best for her to get her sleep, but I just long to hold her and snuggle her.

My sweet sweet grandma just called. I think of her daily and lately have began loving it when she calls and i get to answer. I know someday I will miss her crazy talk and her funny stories that we hear over and over. She's the most loving women. She has taught me alot about acceptance and speaking only kind words to people. She may gossip alot about the people in her town or her neighbors but she would never udder a bad thing about her family. she just shows us love. Absolute, unconditional love and she's so full of praise. Much like my grandpa was. she carries that even though he is gone, she tells us always how much she loves us " a hum bunch." and how she is so proud of us and is so encouraging. I leave our conversations feeling uplifted and encouraged. i love her so much and often have thought of moving there to live with her. I should have done that when my grandpa passed. I felt strongly that I should have, and I prayed about it alot....and yet i didnt do it. I will never know why. I just didnt go. I should have. I will always regret that.


well...the timer is beeping- my pumpkin bread is done and its time for me to tuck in for the night.