Today has literally been abreath of fresh, fall , wonderful air! I have GREATLY enjoyed the taste of October and it has lifted my spirits. If you know me, i have always hated the heat. I like summer for the green trees, grilling out, fireworks, long days, summer nights, clear skies, thunderstorms- but I HATE HATE HATE to sweat or feel sticky. I just hate it. I am not a huge fan of being so freezing cold that you have to breath inside your sweater just to keep your lungs from freezing solid either so the LOVELY months in between are what i live for. I look forward to these days all year long and they are here!!! WHoooop whhoppp. I left work early today- Vaughn has been a poopy mess (pooping 12 times in just 2 days) and just not feeling like herself- though her energy is still great and she's still happy- and I just needed some more Vaughn time. I guess I got spoiled this weekend. I didnt skip out on too much, just 45 minutes but it was such a great feeling when i walked out of htose stupid doors and felt complete comfort. There is not a whole lot you can do to upset me when it feels like this. The first thing I did was come home (it was all closed up, no air on, feeling like you just walked into a jar of honey) and opened up every window I could find. Even VE seemed happier. We ate dinner outside with papa and then came back in to play in the cool air! i could talk for days about this weather. I think this is Gods reward in our lives. To feel the complete beauty with every second we are living. I am sitting in my bed, covered by my favorite iowa Hawkeye fleece blanket from my aunt and the window next to me is open..ahhhhhhhhh....sweet vaughn in in her warm cozy pjs covered by a warm cozy blanket and ready for the night!
I got her halloween costume yesterday, early I know but i want to get her pictures taken in it and use them for her Thank you cards for her birthday- this all requires a little time and planning. She put it on and stood in front of hte mirror last night for 10 minutes laughing at herself. I dont think she really knew it was her in there but it was the funniest thing I have seen in a long time. She would walk away from the mirror, walk back and start laughing again. She just looked proud. it was so darn cute. I didnt have my video camera near by but will have to catch it on film next time i put her in it. i definetly think she is going to be a kid who likes to dress up!!! She is always putting my hats on, playing with my shoes, going through her dresser and pulling everything out, looking at it, throwing it back in there...it will lead, hopefully, to many fashion shows in the future!
She started doing the most precious thing, maybe all kids do, but i adore it. When i am holding her or walkign with her or laying with her, she will put her arm around my neck and either play with my hair or just rub the back of my neck. Its so sweet and it just melts my heart.
I wish I had video camera built into myself, that recorded her whole life through my eyes. I want so badly for her to see herself through my eyes, now, in fifteen years when things are awkward, in 20 years when she's looking for a spouse, in 30 years when she's having her own kids, i want her to know how she is absolute perfection. I want to be able to replay for everyone the moments that have made me the proudest mama, the memories i never want to forget. I want to replay every moment of her life over and over again becasue she is growing up way too fast. I have been lookign back at pictures of when she was born and it just brings tears to my eyes hwo much she has changed in only 10 and a half months. Talk about taking nothing for granted! My tiny baby is getting so big, learning so much, changing so drastically...i just want to hold her and tell her to slow down... I want her to stay my sweet little baby girl forever. She's just amazing.
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