Answered prayers....

God sure has a funny way of working. A blunt way. A "lets not beat around the bush. You're being a stubborn, untrusting idiot, now LISTEN UP girlfriend! "sort of way. The past couple weeks have been difficult. The past few years-more less, i have been searching for answers to a specific area in my life. I keep saying...God, I need signs. So he gives me one. And I say, was that a sign? If that was your sign God- I didnt get it, could you send a bigger one? And so he does. And I say "God, i think im digging to deep into things. Was that your bigger sign? If so, I am paying attention...just one more...and this is how its carried on for years. I have always half jokingly prayed and told people " I think if i am supposed to get a sign it needs to be huge, in bright yellow letters with some kind of another sign along side it so i know its for me....that this is the sign I am supposed to be listening to." This has been my prayer, my whole hearted prayer the past few weeks...And today at church God must have taken me serious becuase while i was praying silently- half listening in and out of the sermen, I look up and on the GIGANTIC overhead screen in BIG BOLD YELLOW letters, right next to one of my favorite, most relatable paintings (Edward Munch- The Scream) read the words I had been looking for. " Do not let fear make your decisions for you." and in my heart I heard the rest..." For in the Lord, your God there is nothing to fear. I will not lead you to harm, i will take you from pains way."
And shortly after, Pastor Tom pownded the nail in harder stating " You who are young have a responsibility to choose your spouse wisely. Choose one who's heart is equally with the Lord."

Thanks God, for the slap across the head. It was one of those "Smack- Shoulda had a V8" sorta moments.