Feeling defeated.

I assumed that once God answered prayers, it was easy from that point on...you would easily accept it because after all, it is God's plan for you. WRONG. Knowing and accepting are two completely different things. I dont think I have ever been more sure of God's plan than I am right now, and yet, I feel completely defeated and lost. I dont like to accept what God wishes for me in this department. I had a breakdown today coming home from work. Picked up my girly and my breakdown continued through the walgreens pharmacy drive through, on home and I havent stopped since!! I have a new friend from work that I also feel was put in my life by God at this point for a reason. He is amazing and I am so blessed to have him in my life as such a strong Christian man right now. He is always reminding me- in emails, sticky notes phone calls etc to keep my chin up, talk to God about it, trust God. I dont let things get to me at work, but he just can tell. SO he called me when he got off of work to make sure I have been praying. To listen. To give what advice he knew. And he reminded me that change is ALWAYS hard. Whether its good change or bad, its change and that makes it difficult. He said "right now, its hard for you to see a tomorrow different than today. That doesnt mean its going to be miserable or hard-i think youre just scared. You are a great mom and you know what you need to do. You cant have asked for a more clear sign and you just need to remember, God won't take you somewhere to leave you there by yourself." He said "How can you focus on your baby girl when your so focused on why your mad or upset or hurting?" He said alot of things. Things that were comforting. Before he hung up- he said to me " I am always always here for you...you can call always, but before you pick up that phone...make sure you have called God on it and asked him for advice and told him how your feeling." I just needed that. I needed someone other than family and church friends to remind me of that. This is a tough week. It's going to get worse before it gets better. I am just struggling to see the light at the end of this tunnel.