Heartache.

My heart is aching for the families i know, and those I dont know, who are going through unthinkable amounts of pain. Those families on my mind right now include my cousin Jailee, her husband Chris and thier son Jude. At five months pregnant, Jailee delivered her daughter Joey Rachelle at 10 inches long and 11.2 ounces. Unthinkable. The precious little girl lived for 4 hours while her mommy and daddy got to love her and be with her, and then she passed. As a mother, this is pain I cannot fathom. I cannot imagine losing the purpose in your life. Something you have planned for, longed for and felt inside of you for 5 months to have met her and then had to say goodbye all within 4 short hours. I just cant stop thinking of them, feeling her heartache and praying for them.

The other family, whom i dont know but I am sure you all have heard- The Iowa city family who was killed by the dad/husband. 4 beautiful adopted children, one loving mother and a lunatic father. I dont understand why he didnt just kill himself first. To kill himself after everyone he killed his entire family is such a cowardly act. I am disguested. It just makes you realize, you never know what is happening behind closed doors, behind the big beautiful homes, the families high up and active in the community. You just never never know. I hate that man that i dont even know. Those poor children, unwanted from their origional homes, and put in the hands of a killer as their caregiver. I cannot imagine the last minutes in their homes. I cannot imagine that mothers last thoughts of her children's safety, her concern for their lives. I cannot imagine seeing your brothers and sisters killed. I cannot imagine how sick that man must have been to do this to his family. I literally have not stopped thinking about it. This is why i dont watch the news. Because i see things like this, sick horrible demented things and then they control my life for several weeks, they control my thoughts, i cant get it out of my head, out of my dreams, out of my fears. It exhausts me emotionally and mentally. I hate that man.

So to anyone reading this PLEASE keep these two families in your prayers. They need all of them they can get.