Hardest weekend of my life.

As many of you know- this has been an especially trying weekend for me. After much thought, and little preperation, I decided it was time that Rudy and I take a break. For the time being I am living with my parents. We both Love Vaughn-elise more than anything else in this world, but we are needing some time apart to figure out what it is that we want for our futures....be that together or seperate. We have decided to take a few months, or longer and re learn ourselves, figure out what we want and what we wont settle for. We may end up together, as a family and we may not. My hope is that this time apart will prove best for us all. Becuase this is about Rudy and I and not Vaughn and Rudy, he will be watching her still in the mornings. For now, as long as that continues to work out. She loves her daddy, she lights up when he walks in a room. I would never take that from either of them.


I am asking that everyone keep us in thier prayers. It was one of the hardest choices i have ever had to make to leave, and i am still not convinced it was the right thing, but its time we make some choices and this was what needed to happen in order for those decisions and choices to take place. This is not something I am proud of or delighting in, its just where I am. It is strange not waking up in your own place, the place you have decorated (at least to an extent.), where you know where everything is, where its your pictures on the walls, your food in the fridge, your space, and you can do as you please. I have not lived in my parents house since high school and its an adjustment. They are very gracious for allowing me to come back and move my things in. I appreciate that more than they know. Its still hard though.

Again, please keep me and Rudy and Vaughn-elise in your prayers during this rough patch. Thanks!