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Its very hard to pull in the driveway and not have sadie there to greet you. Sometimes you dont realize what a big place your pets have in your life until they are gone. I bought some flowers last night and we burried her with some and have another bundle to put on top of the dirt tonight. Matt and dad worked so hard on making her old house into a nice resting place for her. She was burried with her rugs and matthew put some of her favorite chew toys in there with her. its just so sad, my heart is breaking. Especially for my sweet brother. I havent seen him so torn up in a very long time but he has wept for a solid two days. He just laid with her on the garage floor and cried and he put her in her resting spot with such struggle. He took much pride in sadie. He had taken her to the vet two weeks ago because she was acting strange. I will never forget his concern. I called the doctor yesterday to see if he missed somehting or if the tests lead to any concern or gave him any clue as to what could have happened. He was very sad about Sadie and said he saw nothing that could have hinted toward this.
Death is so difficult. Matthew broke down yesterday and said "how can anyone say pets dont have souls. What a horrible thing to say! I know Sades is in heaven." it gave me goosebumps. He started work today and hopefully that will help take his mind off of it. Though it hasnt for the rest of us.


Vaughn has ANOTHER ear infection and a bad yeast infection. if these meds dont work I am demanding something be done.