big mistake

So, last night rudy and I decided it was date night time....great idea! My parents gave us a gift card to the movie theater back at Christmas and we had yet to use it so we decided it was time. I don't watch a lot of TV and thus don't see a lot of movie trailers but Rudy really wanted to go see this one called "knowing" with Nicholas cage. (what movie is bad that has Nicholas cage in it right?) Plus my parents had seen it and thought it was awesome. For a little back story I have HUGE anxiety about death, the end of the world and my own dying. I have a very strong feeling that I will die young/soon and that I will have to say goodbye to vaughn etc. I mean HUGE anxiety about it. Sometimes I don't want to leave the house, want to call into work etc because i get such a strong feeling I will die that day if I leave the house. Probably not many of you know this but Rudy is well aware of this issue. Not something I like to talk about to anyone and just thinking of it gives me huge anxiety. So WHY IN THE WORLD did he suggest this movie?? I had the WORST anxiety attack of my life in the theater. Luckily it was close to empty. It was the worst 2 hours of my life. i wanted to leave, come home. I was a WRECK. poor rudy. I could not stop crying and was shaking so badly i kept knocking the popcorn over. Seriously, i thought I was going to pass out. I have never had anxiety attacks that seriously but it was ridiculous. I did not know what was happening to me. He felt HORRIBLE and followed me home and sat with me until I was calm but I didn't sleep ALL NIGHT. Some of you are probably thinking I am crazy, but it was seriously the most scary thing I have ever been through. WORD OF ADVICE....DON'T watch this movie if these kinds of things bother you...at all! It was the saddest, scariest, most mentally tormenting movie i have ever seen. I didn't think i was going to make it home and just watching the movie made me feel like i was never going to see Vaughn again. You can imagine that I ran in the door and back to the room and picked her up and slept with her all night in my bed. I cannot even explain how I felt.....it was miserable. The most intense movie I have EVER seen...and I love intense movies. SO needless to say date night turned into a horrible, scary, emotionally painful night for me...and probably Rudy too. I hope I NEVER feel like that again.