So, I have been thinking alot lately, researching alot and debating with myself alot. I try to do what is best for the environement whenver possible... I dont print at work unless I have to and I seriosuly lose sleep over the amount of wasted paper in my office, I use organic, chemical free cleaners, I buy economical sized things when i can to avoid wasted packaging, I try to be economical with gas, buy organic, recycle whenever I can, etc etc etc....but the one thing I have had a hard time with is switching to cloth diapers. i have done alot of reasearch and found that diapers take 500 years to dissolve from the landfills, they have bleach in them which I do not want vaughns sweet soft skin exposed to, and did a little math to figure out that she will use around 5000 disposible diapers before she is 2 and we will spend close to 2000 dollars on diapers alone. Two nights ago i was up all night thinking about switching her. As soon as I read that they take 500 years to disappear from the landfills, I instantly thought that my great great great great grandchildren will be living on earth with my daughters diapers. Gross and SAD. So, I talked about it at work alot and at first everyone was really grossed out, but the more we talked, the more they agreed that its not economical or earth friendly to use disposibles. I have looked at a lot of different types of cloth diapers and they are alot different than I though, I alwas thought it was a big hunk of cloth and sharp pins and plastic covers...so wrong.

Anyways, I am having a really hard time. I know they are alot of work- lots of laundry etc, but i really feel i owe it to her and I and the earth and her great great great grandkids to not be putting 5000 diapers in the earth. Thats just gross...much grosser to me than washing pee diapers in the washing machine. Any opinions on this? I really cannot sleep at night because i am feeling so guilty after reading all those facts.

P.S. I am really missing a camera!