HOORAY

I wont lie...this was trully the longest day of my life. I have sat in doctors waiting rooms, bored out of my mind and the time went faster than it did today. I was done with my work for the month on wednesday and had finished every minor thing i could imagine on thursday so today i literally-no exageration- stared at my cubical wall. id walk around, check email, stare some more, look at the clock, check my email, stare some more ...this happened for 8 freakin hours!

I will go crazy if they dont find me more work. End of story. BUT...ITS A LONG WEEKEND. I couldnt possibly need a long weekend more than i do this weekend. I am so excited to just...do nothing. Tomorrow, i will hit up garage sales. Looks on craigslist like there's an oodle of them wtih lots of baby stuff for Vaughn's age. (Im obsessed with craigslist.) Then, my parents are having a dinner party saturday and sunday. So, ill proabably try to stay out of the way- who knows what i ll do to get out of their hair, maybe the park with vaughn, maybe rent a movie, not sure.



maria had some left over hair extensions and since my hair refuses to grow- she is going to glue them in tomorrow evening. THey wont last long she said but it might be fun for a week to have my hair longer. Then who knows- maybe I will cut it when those are out. I always say i want to grow it out but the truth is...there hasnt been one day(honestly) all summer that it hasnt ended up pulled back by midway through the day. My hair is stubborn, too straight to look cute when i leave it curly, too curly to look pulled together unless i put stuff in it and air dry it. its not the type of hair, at this length, that looks good with just wash and wear. i..like everyone...like to do my hair on occassion and get dolled up and look pretty. I used to do this daily. But the truth is that its impractical for me at this point. I cannot even brush my teeth without having to chase VE around or make sure she isnt putting something into her mouth. I need somethign that is wash and go...and can be styled and look cute when i have the time, or air dry and look cute when i dont have the time. I am forever frustrated with my hair- i just get bored easily. I dont like the color- but some days i do, i dont like the length but somedays i do....its frustrating!


I think i am just frustrated with myself...my eating has strayed from the typical. Not that I was ever a health nut but I have always at least been consious and if i do bad at one meal i try to make up for it the next. I try to eat more fruits and veggies than anythign else, i try to void the carbs and sugars...but lately- ive said screw it. I hate that. I dont know why my instinct with that is gone. I just eat what i want, when i want. I havent been eating breakfast and if i do its coffee and a muffin or donut or cheese from the convienent store, i usually eat a very unhealthy lunch, get a snack midafternoon and then dont eat healthy at dinner...if i even eat dinner. I am usually not hungry so if my parents arent home and havent made dinner- i simply dont eat...then wake up starving and craving sugar because my blood sugar is so low. I KNOW BETTER THAN THAT. I need to get back on track, removitaved, mentally refocused. GRRR. I also usually drink between 100-120 ounces of water a day and really never drink pop. If i do, its just a few drinks and in the trash it goes. Lately, ive been craving pop and havent been drinking even 68 ounces of water a day-and i love water! GRRRR....that annoys me about myself.

Vaughn-elise had a cranky day and went to bed early. She's highly emotional and one minute is laughing, the other is crying and wants to be held. Poor thing. I feel bad when she gets that way because she cannot tell me how she feels. She is generally such a content happy go lucky baby that when she has off days you just feel bad for her because she doesnt know how to say "today was a bad day!" I am excited to spend the next three days with her, loving on her, and playing. YAY for holiday weekends.