I worked at the state fair today. What a mess of people. I swear there has to be a dress code to get in....wear the most bizarre, inappropriate, trashy clothes you can find and grow a mullet....or a beard if your a women. seriously. I don't see people dressing like that any other time of year- but fair time- look out! Its fun to people watch though-

We are going up to see Rudy's family tomorrow in the quad cities. I have so much to do that I shouldnt be blogging and i just dont feel like doing any of it. I need to clean the fridge- lame, hate that job....i need to vaccum and mop-but no one will complain while im gone if its not done til sunday...I finished laundry and now need to pack and I am hoping to convince rudy that him doing the dishes would be a very generous and manly thing to do:) Wish me luck. Poor sweet Vaughn is still not in bed. If she gets a bit beyond tired, she's done for and its like she'll never fall asleep. Wild one she is.

I am exhausted today...my mind is running a million miles a minute and i just need ten minute of peace. I cant think about any one thing for more than a few minutes before my mind is off to the next thing....its funny, none of the stuff I think about is anything that needs to be done now...its ideas for a "what if" in home daycare, its making a list of birthday gifts ideas for Vaughn and my other family members, its pre holiday shopping in my head, its homework and paperwork that need to get done in the next few weeks, its house things, its calendar planning upcoming weekends, its budgeting, its everything but what needs to be on my mind in that very moment. i wish i was one of those people that took each day at a time but my mind just doesn't work that way. I am such a planner that I am always living two months in advance. I hate that, i love it at times but mostly I hate it. I wish I could just live today- not think about next month at all. Its exhausting. Rudy emailed me the other day asking what plans we had for the upcoming weekends. My response was a page long calendar of every weekend from now until the new year. His replied simply "you're crazy." That's how i feel sometimes when i really think about my spinning mind. Crazy.