Thursday, April 14, 2011

A dash of salt and a little pepper....

1.It is amazing, when you are right where God wants you to be, how easily things come. I am loving life as a stay at home mom. Rudy says it might be the best thing we've decided to do- I agree!

2. Vaughnie had her first dentist apt on Tuesday. She did GREAT. Perfect little teeth. She was alittle freaked out by the flossing (I dont floss her teeth at home) but otherwise she did awesome. Not one tear!!!

3. Also on Tuesday, She had her first bee/wasp sting. Ouch! She screamed the most becuase she knew a bug was on her, but once she found out she'd been stung (I dont think she felt that part) she of course, had a fit over that too. The funny thing is that now she thinks every.thing.is.going.to.sting.her! Its sad and funny all in one. She got cheese on her hand at lunch today and started crying it was going to sting her. I told her to chill out, cheese doesnt sting and she said (gotta give the girl credit) "Yeah, well...I didnt think that bee would sting me either and look what happened!!!!"  Oh, she's too funny!

4. I have an apt tomorrow for a HUGE wedding shoot. This would be double to triple the income than my normal weddings. Pray that its a good match! I always pray about my brides and grooms and that the right ones find me and its a great match. I have not had too shabby of luck so far and have ended up becoming friends with some of them before, some after the weddings....this couple is ADORABLE and would be soo much fun to work with. I have been dreaming of doing a shoot at this one coffee house downtown, its amazing and would be great for a photojournalistic shoot....I was telling rudy all about it and the next day I met this couple, and he WORKS there! AND they said they have been wanting to have their engagement shoot there!! Tomorrow is our second meeting so I am hoping they book!

5. So this is what it feels like??? Rudy and I went to the Weekend to Remember marriage conference about a month ago. Things with us had been ROUGH for....well, 6 years. haha. We love the heck out of each other, but I am a fighter....or I have been. I am not a silent bite your tongue kinda girl...I tell it like it is. Rudy is the opposite. He avoids conflict and would rather sit silent. Our relationship has been steady in that neither of us want to leave, but rocky in that it always just felt like sooooo muuuuch worrrrk just to make it work. For the past....month or month and half things have. been. AWESOME. Its so weird and we talk about it all the time. Not sure what happened but we just sort of clicked into place and have been on the same page and smooth sailing.  I dont know what is changed but I am SO thankful. I know many of you have been praying for us and we can feel it! Thank you!!! I forgot what it feels like to be in love with him. I have always loved him, but forgot how it felt when things were really good. I love it. I love him.  Vaughn loves that we laughing together all the time and not fighting...and we love that she notices that!

6. Incomplete. Our family does not feel complete to me. Not yet. This is a struggle of body vs mind. My body shouldnt have more children naturally probably. My heart feels like Vaughn needs a sibling. I want more children. At least one. Maybe more. We have thought about adoption and are praying about it. Could use prayers as to what we are supposed to be doing with our family size.

7. Easter. I love holidays. But, I dont think I was as intuitive or deep thinking as Vaughn when I was a child. She gets so confused and frankly, I am really torn about what I should be telling her. She asks alot "so was the Easter bunny Jesus's pet?" or "Jesus came back to earth becuase he loves us and wants to bring us easter eggs." no....no....no.... I do NOT want to confuse her nor do I want to mask the real reason for the holidays. I am so torn in how much to "try" to make her believe these things. She does the same about Santa...."Is Santa's birthday AND Jesus's birthday..." etc etc. I am so glad she gets the Jesus part of it and is MOST interested in that. She could care less about the Easter Bunny but wants to know all about the Easter story, day in and day out asks to hear that, read about it, do the Resurection Eggs set she has...
In the same breath I want her to have the same magic and anticipation about holidays that I had. Would she have LESS fun if she knew that we gave her the baskets and that we put the eggs in the yard? Does it make a difference who its from or just that she gets to take part? Rudy says its not worth confusing her and its not worth lying to her over. That she can know the truth and still "pretend" for the fun of it. He didnt grow up with much in the terms of holidays and never had a visit from an easter bunny so he doesnt get the nostalgia I feel about it. Ugh. Parenting is hard work!

1 comment:

Barb said...

I'm so happy for your little family Meghan. So glad you and Rudy are doing good. Don't beat yourself up too bad though, John and I have had our rough patches. Marriage is hard work for everyone, if someone says its not, they are lying. So glad you two are building a solid foundation with Christ, it will get you through anything that is thrown at you over the years. I'm like you, I'm a in-your-face kinda girl too, can't help it, Ijust am, but have learned to control it somewhat, its an ongoing process. I would love to have you and Vaughn come over some day for a visit. I'm always here. Take care girl and I will continue to pray for your marriage and your family.

Barb