growing up quick

My Dearest Vaughn-elise,
You tell me every.single.day that you promise not to grow up, that you promise not to get big and that you promise you will alllllways be my little girl. Ohh this quiets my heart. All to clearly you are growing faster than I even realize. The other night while you said your prayers you whispered to God to not let you grow in the night so that mommy would not be sad. I never want you to feel your growing saddens me. It is a mixture of joy and sadness and I do wish I could freeze time and hold you  just where you are. In your innocence and purity and absolute wonder. All too soon you will be off to pre-school with the "big kiddos". You have asked over and over when you get to be big enough to ride the bus and I know that day will be here before we know it. But for now, I want to hold onto each and every moment with you at this age. I am so very thankful to be able to start our journey of me being at home with you full time. While I will still be working some days, my time will be focused on you. I have already signed us up for classes and planned days. I have been working toward THIS time, these moments since the very moment I found out I was going to be having you. I am so very blessed beyond measure to have you in my life, everyday, your hugs, your wit, your sweet words,  your spunk, your never ending excitement to see me....even if it was just moments before. I love you to the moon and back and you are my  most precious!  You are growing far too quick my love. Far too quick indeed.

Love you so very very much, your mommy.