Grandpa.

If I could do it over I would visit more, write more letters, cook for you more, sit and listen to your stories for longer time, I would study your face longer, I would ask about your memories of us, I would ask the private details of your life that only those closest know, I would ask about your biggest pride, your most joy. i would make you present for you family events, I would pray for you more.
If I lived in the world I wanted I would be able to take care of my family in their time of need, I would be in the position to leave and go stay, to pick up some pieces, to comfort and care, I would be more able.
If I had my questions answered I would want to know where you are, how you are, why goodbyes are never easy, I would want to know if you knew before it happened, if you were scared, if you prayed, if you cried. I would want to know why it hurts so bad to have you leave though I know your in a "better" place. I would want to know why a long life seems so short to those who love you.
If I had you hear for five more minutes I would tell you how much i love you, how strong and how hard of a worker you are. I would tell you you led a blessed life full of people who love you- I would memorize every part of your face, I would memorize you laugh. If I had you back for five minutes I would cry and rejoice and praise God for you. If I had you back for five minutes I would pray with you. I would fall on my face and I would pray for you.
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you. I cry, I regret, I am thankful, I remember, I mourn, I wonder.