Today was exceptionally stressful. I'm only partly sure why and the rest of it i think was maybe just a bad day. Rudy got on me about my summer hours and how much they put everyone else in an unfair place having to take vaughn everyday and it hurt my feelings and made me feel like I was doing a bad job as a mom. I took this hour change not becuase I enjoy waking up at 5:30 am but because it brings me home by 4 to spend extra time with vaughn...time that i adore! so that made me cry at work becuase I just felt like i was making the wrong choices all over the place and it just started my day off bad. Then I had the stomach mess at work and spent most of my time in the basement bathroom and it just went from there. When I got home Vaughn was the best mood lifter:) She's just so sweet and always wants to hug and kiss and hold me and read and sing and she's just my hero. she was very giggly tonight and as I watch her this past week or two i am realizing how big she is getting. she's a real toddler and it makes me both smile and tear up. She's my BABY. she always will be but it makes me sad to see her baby stage go. She is now asking "why you doin dat mama?" and "who dat?" its bittersweet but a journey I never thought I would live. I am soo thankful every single moment for her. I wish my life was different in the sense that I could spend more time with her, work part time, take part in the adventures that I wish we could but my goal right now is to get stuff paid off, in order and start saving so that eventually maybe I would be able to do more of that....but right now, this is our life and I am doing my best to make it a great time.

full time mom, full time student, full time work......im exhausted. laundry calls....