I am very much now in the Christmas mood. I think not having my own place to decorate has put a little "bah humbug" in my step lately. If anyone knows me, you all know that I am the CHRISTMAS obsessed, listening to carols starting August, Spending more on paper and ribbons than on gifts, decorating freak. I have always gotten this strong sense of peace and joy around the holidays and whenever around Chrsitmas things...i never have a problem when Chrsitmas stuff is in stores before halloween! I just decided today that I need to snap out of it. I have a ton to be thankful for...so much and Iwant to make this year special for Vaughn just as I would in my own aparmtnet. I wanted to move to the basement so I felt like i had my own place and could put up my own tree and the holiday decor that I got at the Color drive in October....but sicne that was nixed right away i decided heck with it, I will decorate my room as much as I can. So today I spent all day cleaning and organizing and then rearranged my room. I am getting my new (bought off craigslist for way cheap this summer) tree in my room and decorate it. I removed all the pictures in my room and put up all my christmas pictures and decorations. I am excited. I have been wrapping lately and even though I did not have money to spend alot this year on bows and ribbon, i did throw down 8 dollars to get new bows and have enjoyed wrapping all my gifts and looking at them shimmer. I love it, its so magical and amazing. I TRULLY hope Vaughn has the same child like excitement for the holidays as i do for her entire life! Rudy has no fond memories of the holidays. He says they did not decorate, he knows not one Christmas song, he doesnt buy gifts for his family and depending on the year he will get gifts or not. I find it trully sad that such a huge amazing holiday could be looked on with such a "blase" feel. I hope Vaughn does not feel that way about holidays, and moreso, I hope I do a good job at making things special and exciting for her so that she remembers always our traditions and fun things we do around the holidays so she wants to do those things with her children someday.
She made her first tree ornament the other night...she was so cute and got so excited putting it on the tree. She didnt get it obviously but I made a huge deal about it so she was excited too....I need to post some pictures but have misplaced the cord that goes from my camera to computer so I need to hunt that down and then will have lots to post.
Happy Holidays to you all!!!!!!
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