Ready to start over.

This seems to be the theme of my life lately. In every aspect. I am just ready to start over. Due to the lack in blogging ( I have cooled off and am ready to start up again.) I alot has happened but I do find it overwhelming to start from the beginning and write about it. So I will pick up one day at a time. I am learing I do best this way anyways. Vaughn-elise is almost 9 months old. That breaks my heart- I cannot believe this past year has gone so fast. I want to do it all over again...slower...I want to spend more time on the floor playing, less time at work, more time reading, less time running errands, more time snuggling, less time on everything else. She is growing so fast. She has three teeth now and is really starting to slim down some. I just adore her to pieces. She has mastered crawling and it into EVERYTHING. She has fallen down the three kitchen stares, propelled off the edge of the bed, gotten bumps and bruises and she still keeps smiling that hilarious goofy grin. She's a trooper. ( No, i dont ignore her or leave her to herself....I am always right there when she gets hurt which makes it worse...she's just too fast!) She is my sunshine through and through.

We took her to the fair tonight. The dallas county fair. It always is funny to me how much enjoyment Rudy and I get out of taking her places for the first time or showing her things for the first time- when really, she could give a darn. We took her through the animals. A pig sniffed her foot and she just looked at me like...get me out of this smelly place. Though, she does love animals, farm animals seem to be less her thing than cats and dogs and zebras. We went to the Demo Derby. Rudy and I had a good time and she did great. The noise didn't bother her abit- though the dirt clods flying at her head were worrysom... good thing Rudy was on top of the "take cover pose". Fireworks followed and wouldnt you know it- she slept through the whole show. oh well, they were kind of a bust anyways- but her first fireworks nonetheless. We will have to count next year as her first and make sure she's awake for them:)

Things with work are hectic- there have been alot of lay offs and my best friends there are no longer working there..none of them. Our department has gone from 8 really close people to three (one who is leaving on maternity leave for two months). Its quiet and the days are long. I got a small raise which always helps but regardless- the people I worked with were the reason I loved my job...now, not so much.

Things in the relationship field are unresolved and in limbo so i will leave that topic alone.

oh yes, one more thing....Vaughn-elise seems to get this surge of energy around 10 pm everynight. She could be asleep and all of a sudden she's up jumpin in her crib. Yes Yes she has learned to jump in her crib...her feet literally come off the mattress and her legs often go flying in different directs only for her to land on her knees. Its hilarrious and she loves it. Then she stands up, lays her head on the railing, thumb in mouth and she falls asleep...then falls over. Its the funniest thing- but i pretend i am not watching or she just stays up longer. She's quite the show off. i think walking is fast approaching. She is able to stand on her own...not holding onto anythign or anyone for about 5 seconds now.

PS. She still only says Dada...is this strange. She's almost nine months...should she be saying more by this point? I am concerned....no mama yet! SAD. She does say MMMMmmmm though when she eats...too funny.