in a rhythm.

I think we might be getting there. Into a routine that is. Since I started work, i have felt like I cant get a schedule for the evenings really down. Sometimes we are home, sometimes we need to run errands...its just a challenge. Lately though she has been such a trooper. She always seems tired when we get home. Ready for a bottle and a nap- but her naps in the evening tend to make her not sleep well. So, i have been keeping her up til 7ish, sometimes 8 and then letting her go down and she has been sleeping til around 5-6 am without waking!!!!!! i dont know the last time i had a full nights sleep. She wakes up for a bottle and diaper and goes back down til around 8. Its only been three times but i do miss the middle of the night snuggling. I wake up still, worried and go check on her. I think she sleeps better in her own room in her crib. She is quickly outgrowing her cradle and slefish me wants to keep her in our room as long as possible. But, seeing how well she sleeps in her own room is a great thing. I think when she wakes up she is scared and unsure of where she is/where we are... but i think that will pass too. All of these changes in such a short time, food, sleeping in a different room, sleeping through the night...wow. Its all happening so fast. I knew the changes would go quicker when i am at work- but WOW. i really miss my days with her and since she goes to bed so early- I miss our nights too. It makes me sad and excited all in one that she is changing. We bought a video camera with a bit of our tax money and its very nice to know that i will have these memories of her changing and of her so little for the rest of our lives. I am excited that she will be able to look back and watch herself as a baby on tv. I often wonder what i was like as a child and how i acted, what i sounded like, what my quirks were...and she wont have to wonder. We watched the video my sister took at the hospital and after we got home (she let us borrow her camera for a few weeks) and it made me so sad. Not a bad sad, just an "ahhh, i miss that noise, that face etc. kind of sad. She has already changed so much in just a few short months.

Things at work are becoming stressful, still nothing works right, we spend half hte day trying to figure out why this or that wont work like it s hould, calling the IT guy...its just frustrating. I do like my job and more so the people there, but when you start a new job you want to get going and keep going and not get hung up on problems the first couple months your there.

I wait all summer and fall for snow. I always pray for a white Christmas. I love sledding and snowmen, hot chocolate and blankets, warm fires and hot soups.... but I am SICK AND TIRED of this weather. I think it is wearing on everyone. I have noticed everyone seems edgier, more frutrated and rude. It must be the weather. I long for the spring so badly that I notice my own attitude suffering. Its horrible. We all need a change. An open window, a flower, some sunshine, thunderstorms, some warmth. ahhh....hurry spring!!!