I am exhausted today. It was a very very long night and today I feel defeated, restless, discontent, and uneasy. I hate this feeling. I hate feeling like how i feel and what I want is not validated. Sweet Vaughn-elise is sleeping. She's such a precious sweet joy to me....and even when i feel rundown and in a rut, she always never ceases to amaze me and make me feel blessed. Regardless of what anyone else says, she is THE BEST thing I have ever done in my life. I cannot fathom life without her and I work daily to make sure she feels loved and empowered. She lightens my world. She was chatting with an old lady at a store today and that lady just kept saying how sweet she is...and she is! The lady was talking to her about a computer and vaughn just chatted like she new so much about it! :)

I am ready for he holidays, ready to decorate, music, the whole bit. I am ringing the salvation army bells next saturday at a KMART here in dsm. Its the first year I have done it so I only agreed to do it for 2 hours but i am excited to see how it goes.