Giving in....

Since i have been so intrigued by my sisters blogs, and finally come to terms that "blogging" doesnt mean a trashy internet diary discussing breakups and lifes problems blown to disgusting extremes, I decided...what the heck, ill give it a shot. SO, now im blogging. I cant say I will be a faithful daily blogger, but i will try.

Today was either crazy busy or i was badly under rested. Proably more so the latter. We visited my grandpa in the hospital today. He's had surgery and is recovering well. He is still, even in the hospital, a man of many words.
No matter how many times i go back to hospitals, even to see others- I still hate them and find myself exhausted and tense after leaving. I suppose these are fairly normal hospital overload symptoms. The way the smell of unbathed people lingers in the air and dirty bedsheets that are anything but soft and comfortable seem to drape everything. White and sterile-also lingering with germs and illness. Nurses with personalities of bricks and the beeping of ignored IV pumps has me high strung before ive even entered the room.

My grandma is staying with us while my grandpa is recovering. This in itself is eye opening for me. I dont see them as often as i should or would like to, but when i do, i realize how quickly minds can fail you. It scares me to think that one moment you can know something, be somewhere, with someone and not more than two minutes later, forget everything that just happened, was said, or who was there. The mind, the one thing that holds every single thing you know, can be so confused. This is a shattering fact that i struggle to grasp...especially with my grandma. we love her and we miss her old self.

Tomorrow is labor day- a holiday! Thank God. I will sleep in, no doubt and then start a busy day again. But for now, I will go to sleep, and wake up at least 20 times between now and tomorrow. A Good restful night to all.