A brighter day!

I awoke today- tired but in a far better mood than the past day or so. I am sure everyone in my path appreciated this. It probably had alot to do with knowing that i was going to get off early today! Hooray- thank God I have had the privelege to take over the scheduling at work.

While work, as always was overwhelming, it was nice to get some errands run after work and come back in time to eat dinner with rudy. Frozen pizza feels more gourmet every day that goes by:) Anything feels gourmet when you dont have to be the one cooking. At least thats how i feel. I have had a huge craving lately for chili and cornbread. My mom-the wonderful cook that she is- made an amazing pot of vegetable soup with rolls the other night and i cant say that anything has quite hit the spot like that before...ever. My craving has gotten so bad for this dreamy chili and cornbread combo that i dream of- that i have literally had dreams about planning a chili party and have several people bring different kinds of chili. Crazy- I know... but ive been lucky to only have a few cravings of this magnitude.

I have saturday off of work and am feeling incredibly blessed....I would love to hit up some late season garage sales but may end up sleeping in- or trying- and then hitting up the apple festival. My mom is coming over and we are going to finish getting some nursery stuff put together. I am feeling a strong desire to get a hospital bag packed and ready to go. Rudy talked to his boss yesterday, again, to clarify that he could up and leave if i ended up going into labor. Luckily, this was approved....again. :) I think he is more paranoid than he lets on.

Otherwise, I am feeling pretty okay. I'm lying a little bit. But i dont feel... bad necessarily. Just...everything aches, im tired, moody and hungry all the time. My swelling seems to get worse daily and i am in great fear that the possibility of my skin ripping when i bend my feet is getting more and more likely. Rudy laughs and says this will never happen... but i think it just may...skin can only stretch so far, like a balloon... then POP! I keep tripping on things around me that i swear were not there. Its humerous i suppose and i always get a good laugh- i never thought i would be one of those women who couldnt see my feet....i was wrong....there is a two food circle around them that i cant see either. Things seem to just appear in that circle and get under my feet. Oh, if we couldnt laugh at ourselves, what on earth would we do??

I am starting to feel and look like a 90 year old woman with bad artheritis and frown lines. yuck- i can see myself in many years and i think i should change it now before it goes downhill fast!

"Make sure you got clean underwear, she always said, in case you get in an accident & I always figured that'd be the least of my worries, but now I'm older & I see there's a lot you can't control & some you can control & clean underwear is one of those you can. For the most part. " -Brian Andreas