exhaustion!

So today was a challenge to get through- thats about the nicest thing i can say.

The lack of help around the house and the desperate need to get it cleaned and organized is enough to make me have a stroke. i am tired of pushing, asking and begging and just ready to get it done...so even after a long day- im stuck cleaning. This sucks! I think it must be a difference in how we were raised...my house, deep cleaned weekly, not so much on the other end of the stick. Not so much- ever! I refuse to bring a newborn home to a nasty dirty place. SIGH... i need to sleep...obviously- the only thing i can seem to do is gripe and question why i am the only one working on anything...I dont understand how men can sit on a couch and turn the tv up while we are trying to the cook dinner, clean up after dinner, vaccum, organize etc... i, sometimes am glad i dont understand men...and other times, id give anything to understand them...just a little bit!!!!!

Stacie (my boss) must have felt my tension and could read (by the tens of hundreds of lists i had around me at work today) that i was overwhelmed and needed to have some time to do what i needed to do. SO, she gave me tomorrow (what was my last day ) off. While i have to stop in and get some things done- its more than nice to know i dont have to go in and work all day and then come home and get to get back to work.... I liked college better!!! For some reason, cleaning was my LAST priority then!

Anyways, Someone asked me today if i was excited for monday- i kinda laughed and said...."excited....terrified...they all feel the same." And its strange, because they do. A weird feeling in your stomach, anxiety and impatience, overtaking of the mind. Maybe its a mix of both.

Tomorrow night is chili and corn bread night at my parents and i am SO EXCITED!! Just what i need on a fall day to unwind and take a minute to breathe!!!

frazzled, emotional, crazy-
Meghan