Friday, September 7, 2007

i am blessed

Today has been one of those reflecting days. One of those days where you see your life for what it is. One of those days where you realize just how lucky you are. Its been one of those days where things are in the right perspective. The little things have appeared little and the big things have appeared big and i have realized, with each consious though, how trully, unbelievably blessed i am. I have been overly "moody" lately-and in fact, quite hateful. As I ran errands this morning i realized how blessed I am that my car has yet to give out on me, that I am able still, in my pregnancy to run errands. While another stranger asked me if i was carrying twins, i said. " no, but what a blessing that would be huh? I luckily though, just have one and she's big and happy and healthy." and the lady smiled back and said ..."now thats a blessing." and it is! The biggest of blessings i think. While i complain about not being able to get comfortable or to sleep well or to do much without crutches or a chair, i must remind myself that this is all becuase I AM HAVING A BABY. the one thing i always wanted and was always told would never happen...and it is. AND even better, she is healthy and active and will be here before i know it!

I have been feeling incredibly lucky lately to be in the family i am in. I have grown, in the past months, to really adore spending time with my mom. This is a big step for any daughter i think. As teens we try to rebel and prove that we are independent, but as we get older, at least for me I found that my mom is my dear friend- that she DOES have my best interest at heart and that she IS fun to be around and talk to. I have ground to trully respect her and desire to be around her- i miss her when i dont talk to her and i look forward to spending any time ican with her.

While i have always known how amazing my dad is, its more prominent to me, still as i get older as well. I always, when younger, took his hard work and labor for granted- i thought all dads did that. I was wrong. Sometimes i see him exhuasted and wish i could climb up on the roof and help like i used to- unfortunatly, my body gave out long before his has. He is a kind spirit and a soul of a warrior.



I am ready for the weekend and as the weather cools, i am blessed that fall is nearly here.

1 comment:

Mickie said...

ok you stinker you. You have offically made me cry ....AGAIN.
Thank you for the kind words and the personal thoughts you wrote. I am so glad you know, finally, that your dad and I have always wanted only the best for you and that it is never our intent to 'lead you astray' or in the wrong direction. You are a stong gal and you deserve happiness and we are trusting God that He will lead you to where His happiness for you is. We will contiue to lift you and Rudy and your sweet baby up in prayer for God's blessing and His love to rain down on you all. We love you and we are excited for you to have your own precious gift to love and cherish just as we love and cherish each one of you kids. I am glad you are feeling blessed these days and that you are finding joy in the simpler things of life for they truly are the best things in life.
Please know that we will always, always be here for all the "Kinney Kids".
Love ya a hum bun...
Mom and Dad