Let it snow...let it snow...let it snow....

"Sleeping Santa Baby..."

This has been an exhausting week both mentally, emotionally, physically- just draining all around. It is really gettting to me that i dont have the resources to make this first Christmas for vaughn-elise something magical and amazing. I know she wont remember til she's older, but I will. I know I should be thankful that she is here and that i have a warm place to be and clothes on my back- but sometimes that hard. Dont get me wrong- I am MORE than thankful for those things...especially for her and she's the best gift ive ever even imagined- I am just stressed thats all.

It was "papa's" (aka: dad) birthday today and we all went over there. I lvoe being home this time of year- its so comfy and makes me feel "at home". It was a good time had by all to just hang out and do birthday cake and eat warm delicious soup. Happy birthday dad.

This weekend is supposed to be a weather disaster and im sort of excited about it. I think if it looks like winter i might feel more jolly- at least i hope.

i am getting excited to see my little NEPHEW!!! Its weird to think there will be a boy around but i am sooo excited. I can just imagine how tiny and adorable and snuggly he will be and i think about him all the time. I wonder what his personality will be like and what he will sound like and look like. He and vaughn-elise will be just three months apart and it will be so fun to have them in the same class. While i dont want to see the babies (especially my own) get older, i just want them to stay tiny forever- I am excited to see what it iwll be like on the holidays. I can imagine the girls as teenagers and dre too and getting together for cookie decorating for the holidays and going sleding etc. Its all just very exciting. But for now, i love every second with my tiny one and even when we're up til 6:30 am and i am exhausted- I cant imagine it any other way and i feel trully blessed and full of joy and love every time i see her tiny little face. She is my everything- my love.

*The picture above was taken during a mini photo shoot in her santa pjs. She got so comfy, she fell asleep. So stinking cute!