1 year ago today I was doing my hair, my make up, setting up the wedding location and enjoying the blessing of family and friends surrounding me on my wedding day. I was reading the letter written to me by my husband and I was feeling hesitant about the days events, but grateful that we would be a family- for better or worse. I cried tears of happiness, hopefulness, and worry about our unknown future. I felt blessed that my daughter would see her mother and father together.
Today, I have done my hair and make up, I have pondered how to spend the day. I have been feeling overwhelmed by the blessing of my amazing family and the best friends anyone could hope for. I have read the letter my husband wrote me on this morning last year and I have cried tears of happiness, hopefulness, and worry about our unknown future. I have felt betrayal, empty, scared and lonely. I have felt the joy of new beginnings, the grace of second chances and the happiness of reclaiming your life for what it is instead of what you had hoped it would be. I have been on my knees, on my face and with arms stretched open in praise for the God who has kept me going this year. I have worshiped Him for his constant love and for taking my life back in His hands instead of in my own. And I feel blessed that my daughter will know her mother as a woman of strength, determination and who does not allow men to make her who she is.
To all of you who have been there this year- THANK YOU. You have made the transition manageable though not pain free and have helped me with the lessons I didnt want to learn and listened the words I couldn't bare to say.
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