Tuesday

I thought i would take a minute to update this while vaughn elise is taking a nap. I dont think she's feeling very well but had an excellent night last night. She is learning that she can suck on her fingers and i think it kind of weirds her out a little bit- it must feel funny to her, she will suck for a minute and make a weird face and then pull them out and look at me like "mom! whats that?". We had the most fun laying in bed this morning and she was making the funniest faces. She is so annimated. We have been staying inside all week and all weekend as its so cold outside and windy- but i am starting to go a little stir crazy. In a small apartment, there arent many places to go to get a change of scenery or any different activities to do. We might try to get to aunt mimi (amanda's) in the next few days for awhile so gabs and vaughn can mingle:) and amanda can get her aunt time in. Vaughn just loves them both. i love the cooler weather but wish it was a tad less bitter so it wouldnt be so hard to get her out. I know she could use some fresh air too. But for now, we'll stay in and snuggle and nap. I cant complain about that!!!

Happy 3 Week Birthday Baby Vaughn!!

tough monday!

Its only 12:00 and its already been a long day. We had good stretches of sleep last night as long as vaughn was in bed with me. She wasnt having the cradle last night. She must have just needed mama cuddle time:) Sometimes i think she is the princess and the pea. It seems like the smallest of things like a ruffle in the sheets or her sock on funny can make her so uncomfortable. But today, i cant seem to figure her out..she just doesnt seem happy no matter what i do. She acts tired but wont sleep, takes a bottle but i cant feed her constantly, i just wish i knew what could make her more comfortable. she loves being held and snuggled and while that makes cleaning, showering or going to the bathroom impossible- thats what we will do all day if it helps.

she is a big three week old today....its going so fast and making me sad!!!

my thug baby....

My Little Thug Baby!

The sweatsuit looked smaller on the hanger...:) Along with her wild hair- it was a photo must!

saturday = lazy day

After our sleepy day yesterday- I paid for it last night. We went to my parents to hang out with amanda, phillippe and gabi and vaughn elise missed the whole shabang. Matthew and Maria came over to watch a movie and about 10 oclock ms vaughnie thought it was a good idea to start her day. She slept off and on but was up for several hour stretches during the night. I try to love these times with her and make them special bonding and cuddling times but i have to admit, i am not someone who does well on lack of sleep. By the second long stretch of being awake with her i was stumbling down the hall like a drunken idiot, i was just so tired. Poor thing- i know she doesnt understand that "mama needs her sleep" or the whole difference between day and night but im not sure how to get her in a better routine. I know these days will pass and i am equally as sad about that as i am ready for a good nights sleep. So- i try to enjoy it while it lasts and try to take advantage of her daytime naps so i can get rest too. Its just harder than it seems it would be!

Zzzzz...

I havent been outside today, but inside its feeling like a very sleepy day! Little Vaughn cant seem to get woken up long enough to eat and all i want to do is nap with her. Unfortuantly, all i can do is look around at everything that needs done. (not that im doing any of it, but it bugs me enough that i cant sleep). I have errands i need to run but i decided it was a good "stay in your pjs and rest" sort of day. So thats exactly what we're doing.

HOORAY!!!

We had an AWESOME night last night. It was a little crazy at first. I had run to target to try to get some stuff to make rudy a birthday dinner and cake I always thought when i heard children screaming through a store- "oh poor parents, how embarassing.... but why cant they make them stop crying?" Well, I learned. Poor parents is right but last night i felt bad for her. She was ready to be out of her carseat so laid her down and changed her, gave her her bottle, we played etc but i think her stomach was just out of wack still. She spit up alot yesterday although overall was in much better shape than she has been. Frustrated and emotional and about to have a breakdown right smack in the middle of the cake isle at target, i called rudy at work and told him "forget it, i tried to do dinner, but forget it, we're going out to eat."
So, we left target, none to soon for her or I. I think she just needed some mommy time and a little more food and that cured her of the fussies. She slept through most of dinner but seemed ready to get home by the end...
Now for the amazing part- She fell asleep on the car ride home....as usual and so when we got home i decided just to leave her in it. I told rudy i was going to take advantage of her sleeping and go to bed early (we're talking 9 oclock here) and he agreed. He said he'd just "nap" and and then when she woke up he would bring her to the living room with him until she was ready for bed bed. Fair enough- only at 3 am I woke up frantic (but rested) that she hadnt woken up for a feeding yet. I know she loves her car seat but something had to be terribly wrong. So, i woke rudy up and asked him if we should wake her to feed her and change her (im terrified she'll get a diaper rash). He checked her over in her seat and said she's still breathing and seems happy- lets just leave her. Blissfully, i rolled over and went back to sleep. Little did i know that rudy was nervous enough that he stayed up til 5:30 keeping an eye on her and then insisted he wake her to feed her. " she has to be starving" So he fed her, changed her and played til 6:30 and then she at a little more at 9:30 and slept til 11:30!!!!!!!!!! Thats my girl!!!! Mama is feeling well rested today for the first day in months! Hallelujah! Is it the soy milk? or is God just on my side??Who knows but I LOVE IT!