CROSS YOUR FINGERS:)

This morning was my test for the 2010 census. I was nervous because it was a test of basic skills (which I am horrible at tests.) so I got dressed up and went in the blizzard down to the testing site. I was the youngest and most overdressed person there in my black dress pants, cute shoes and dressy top. Everyone else was in flannel ad jeans or a sweatshirt. Yikes. I suck at predicting dress codes. Anyways, good news was that I got EVERY SINGLE QUESTION right. YAY. I am really hoping I get hired. THis would be perfect. Make your own schedule, I could still be home with Vaughn, could work around school work etc. I am REALLY hoping this works out. Only downfall is I dont know when to expect a call....they said it could be next week or not til the end of the year depending on the position they want us for and how good our test score was.

I think we're getting sick around here, chest cold and stuffy noses, hoping it doesnt last more than a few days and doesnt turn into something worse.

Hope everyone stays out of the blizzard and has a great week. Something about the winds of the blizzard is oddly comforting to me. I love hearing the windows rattle and the wind come through the fireplace. Cozy.

Tomorrow is Sweet Andre's FIRST BIRTHDAY. I am so excited for him. What a little sweetie. I am excited to celebrate with him:)

weekend getaway

This weekend we went to the Quad Cities this weekend to get Rudy's new car. (whoop whooop) Its always nice to get away and its always nice to get back to our normal routine. Vaughn missed her toys and her bed. The second she got home she was all about seeing everyone and getting into her toys. she didnt sleep well this weekend so she was in bed early tonight. The loved to see her and how she changes and are always amazed at her sense of rhythm. "Its in her blood" is what they say. I say "her mama's a pretty good dancer too ya knows?" haha. My lungs are definetly still recouping from the amount of smoke I was around this weekend. They just dont do well in that enviroment. My whole body feels different, I wheeze, my sinus's swell up, my head hurts, my hair and skin feel greasy. Vaughn seemed very bothered by it too...she coughed alot, wheezed some. It broke my heart. Some people handle the smoke just fine, but I never have. I think its nice that they let us stay there but I am thinking that from now on I will have to stay elsewhere with Vaughn. That stinks-I wish it was different but its just not and its the easiest way. We look forward to seeing them and its always nice to have a weekend getaway. Wish the drive was shorter. Vaughn did very well in the car though, I was so proud of her!

Tomorrow morning I go in for my interview for the census. Wish me luck. I think have to go get my books for DMACC. YAY. Time for school again. :) I am sort of excited to start learning again....trust me, thats a statement I never thought I would make! haha.

This will be a good week. Lots of snow, but it should be good :)
Hope everyone had a great weekend!

happy hump day

Not much to report on. Just trying to figure out my college stuff today. BORING. I got my w-2 and tried to file this mornign while rudy was here. (Im sorta anxious) and i couldnt becuase IRS doesnt accept files until Jan. 16th. LAME. Also I dont have two of my forms that I "need". (though the information is online.) Frustrating.

We went to the library with amanda and the kiddos today. That was fun to get out a little bit.
i had to stop by my old work to get my w-2 and its so different. all the offices which used to be spread out over a massive building are now in a tiny little area and there's lke 15 people left. It was super strange and so quiet. It was weird going back in there. oh well.

lazy day the rest of the day. i like these kind of days. Maybe ill dye my hair later? Who knows. a crazy spell just might over come me.

frumpy and slumpy.

Thats exactly how I feel lately. Just in a rut. Physically, I am just completely drained. I am feeling fat, lazy, scraggly, bulky and dry (my skin is horribly dry and I look like ashes.) I am SO needing a makeover. I wish I could afford to go to the gym, then to the spa, get a body wrap and then a massage, head over Aveda and get my hair done and then off to get mani's and pedi's. I can dream though right? I am thinking that I need to definetly start working out. I think one of the main factors is I have pretty much stopped drinking water since I moved in with my parents. I dont know why that is, aside from the fact that at work we had filtered water that I would drink around 100 ounces a day of and then at the apt rudy and I bought large jugs of water. I guess I dont like the way faucet water tastes and am too broke to afford bottled water everyday. Anyways, i need to get back in to the routine of 8-10 glasses a day- I felt so much better. Also, being off my meds due to no insurance I am sure is playing a role, plus its winter and that never helps. IDK, Maybe Ill die my hair at home and try some home spa remedies. Rudy's main Christmas present to me was supposed to be a super nice juicer. Well, I was the one tracking the order since he let me pick out which one I wanted and just order it myself. This was the beginning on Dec. Nope- UPS lost it, that JUST MY LUCK. SO for the past 3 weeks I have been calling the company 3-4 times a week checking to see if they shipped my replacement one yet and they keep saying the shipment is pending. ITs rediculous and their customer service sucks and it takes forever to get through because if there are no reps available it says "thanks for calling, due to high call volume, we can not take your call. Goodbye." and it hangs up. ITs just nuts. Im so ticked off. TOday I called and cancelled the order all together and told them I want my money back. So, now I have no juicer. Im super mad because I was really looking forward to doing juice fasts of veggies and fruits this year. I guess maybe I can find another one i like with the money I get back.

Also, this might not be something to blog about but I am curious if anyone has tried this. I am interested in doing a whole body cleanse. I am pretty convinced I have a parasite (been doing lots of reasearch and it seems to fit the bill....also they can cause hypothyroid and hypoglycemia as well as water retention, puffy belly, headaches, muscle aches, fatigue etc.) all things I have. So I wanted to start doing a 60 day body cleanse. You start with a colon cleanse, then parasite cleanse, then liver, kidney and galbladder and blood. It sounds prety easy but I am a little worried about the first two!!! Has any of you dont this? Its not like cleaning out with laxatives or for a colonscopy- its way different. They also suggest coffee enimas- apparently it activates the liver and gets it clean without the bad cafine going into your system?!? Not sure. What are your thoughts? ever tried this? If I do it, I am sure it will be a big blog topic so get prepared! :) I just need to start feeling better and I figure with all the drugs/radiation etc that has been put into my (along with unhealthy foods etc) I should probably do my body a favor and rid myself of some of the toxins. When I had my endoscopy a few years ago they said that there was apool of bodily toxins just sitting in my stomach and my body doesnt seem to realease them. Strange. But it makes sense with how I feel. Anyways, enough ranting.
I am off to meet a friend for coffee. (healthy, no?)

some pictures....

I just love this precious little face all suprised. By what I have no idea.

I remember doing this as a child. Gross.

Unicorn.

It was a busy and fun day today. hung out this morning after another horrible restless night. I dont know why but she is waking at night ALOT. Not always crying, sometimes just whining like she is in pain or uncomfortable, super super gassy. Sometimes she wakes screaming. When/if I put her in bed with me she sleeps better but is still restless, rolling all over, kicking etc. (Sometimes I think she needs to trasnsition into a toddler bed, sometimes i think she is too young for that. When she gets stuck in the crib bars or even rolls into them she wakes up....but in the same breath i think she would get out of a toddler bed when she wakes up. This could be dangerous. )
We then went into town in hopes of going to a play area with gabs and dre but i staked out the jordan creek mall and my sister the valley west mall and there wasnt a parking spot to be found at either mall. Its nuts. I figured with the holidays being over the malls would be bare. I guess most people had today off though. We will have to try again next week.

We met rudy after a test he had to take for work and we wnet to lunch. VE loves to see her daddy and its fun when she doesnt expect it. She was perfect perfect perfect at the restauarant. I was soo proud.
We came home and played alot and the took a bath. Now that she has a lot of new bath toys from Christmas and a baby she bathes with her she is in love with baths. She would stay in there all night. Its cute. She washes' her babies hair, ears and pours water on her head like i do her. Its too cute. She is learning to tip her head back and thinks its so funny.

Tonight I got to do laundry at the laundry mat. First time since college (and that was very rare- maybe once.) Not as bad as I thought- in fact, it was nice to sit in there by myself and read and look at cookbooks and just get some breathing time in. Not that I want to hang out there everynight but it was okay. I was scared at first and asked my mom a bunch of questions. But it was super clean and the owner came in to check on everyone and sweep up. Im not scared anymore! haha

Vaughn's rash is looking much better. It is still there but lessening by the day....except for her poor face, which is still pretty bad.

have a good weekend everyone!

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE!

Well its here! Another year. That to me is so exciting and yet comes with a lot of hesitation- as though i did not make enough of 2008, it went too fast, Vaughn-elise grew up way way too fast in 2008. It makes me sad and happy that this will be here second new years, second Valentines day, second easter, second summer, and 3rd of every other holiday (halloween, thanksgiving, Christmas....) its just insane to me.

I actually did not make it to midnight last night. I know I know....what 25 year old stays home and goes to bed early on NYE? Well, a tired mom with a sick baby I suppose. VE woke up at 11:30 and I went back to lay with her and though I would go back out at 11:45 and watch the big festivities on tv. I was wrong. I passed out too! I was so exhausted today and Im not sure why- I think its from VE sleeping so restlessly. I guess a mother never rests when she knows her baby is not fast asleep, right? I ended up having to nap for an hour or so this evening just to make it through.

anyways, what do you have planned for 2009? i think its smart at the new year to take a few min. to reflect on the best things/most monumental things that happened the previous year and make a list of goals for the new year. I know "resolutions" usually fail, but i think its good ot make them anywyas. Its good to have goals and something to work for. So here goes

In 2008:
*I worked with some great people at EVO and learned alot about what i want/dont want for my life.
*I was able to move back in with my parents and take some time to myself to figure some stuff out.
*Even though rudy was not living with us he was still able to come and spend time with us almost every single day.
*We celebrated some of VE's first holidays which was lots of fun and will hopefully be the start of many traditions!
*We got to travel to Arizona for my cousin's gorgeous wedding. It was a great break and VE's first out of state travel:) Great memories!
*I lost my job at EVO. While this was definetly not in the plans- I feel like it ended up being a blessing. In the small picture- money is tight. In the big picture- this is precious amazing time I have with my daughter and I feel like it was supposed to happen this way. I will leave my future employment up to God and where he wants me and even though i am looking hard for jobs (now up to 115 applications) I am trusting that in this moment I am where I am supposed to be. Raising my amazing daughter and that that will change when its time. I would not give this time back with her for millions of dollars. This may be the biggest disguised blessing of the year. (though i think my parents would disagree:)
* I have been able to pay my bills even without a job. this is huge for anyone who knows me! I think God is really providing for me.
* I have been able to start a weekly tradition of doing coffee with a sweet dear friend molly. It has been the break I have needed during hte week just to take a few hours after VE goes to bed and sit and chat with a friend who is on my level and I love her to pieces. It makes me really appreciate true friends.


Now...2009 (can you believe that?) resolutions/ goals

*I want to regain my healthy lifestyle. I want to start doing daily juicing, get back to drinking 8-10 glasses of water a day start working out again, watching what i eat ect.
* Get down to 130 lbs.
* Start a scrapbook for vaughn-elise
*Get back to Wilmington for a few days and visit friends.
*pay off all credit card debt and be able to start saving
*Medical trascription certificate (starting that on jan. 12th!!)
*Start finding ways to make money at home. I want to start making things and open up a small store on etsy.com
*Get my own place.
*video taping more of Vaughn-elise's everyday activity.
*Get organized and declutter
*start and finish the book 5 from starbucks-a goal setting workbook for where you want your life to be in 5 years and how to get there.
*ENJOY EVERYDAY OF THE YEAR!