Time flies...

Its the weekend and the past three months have flown past!! This day has flown past- I wish i could stop time. Just for moments. Like when vaughn is asleep in my arms, i am laughing with friends, spending time with family. catching the perfect smile, the perfect moment of clarity or calm. I always try to take mental photographs of moments in my head, but the mind fails us all and these memories or photographs fade, become distorted and details are lost. When i start working on monday, i knwo that the times will go faster, vaughn will change quicker without me seeing every moment of her life, missing things she does, she will be changing and i will be missing it. I wish it was, in america, like it is in peru. Mandatory one year paid maternity leave. That sounds amazing. The love in my heart is causing it to burst.

This weather is ungodly. I hate it.

I cant believe i am in the tail end of my last week as a stay at home mom. I am mourning , yet becoming more comfortable with it. The longer her naps are in the afternoon, the more comfortable I am.
In this blasted cold weather, i become so thankful that i have a place to be. My heart breaks and breaks for those people who by choice or circumstance are out on the streets. I cant bear the thought of small children, babies even being cold, shivering and hungry. Where I show discontent when my feet feel a little too cold from the floor- i catch myself and am ashamed. For one night, I couldnt handle their lives. I wonder, if asked to switch places with someone on the streets for just one night- one single night, could i do it? And I selfishly want to say I could, but just as selfishly, I dont believe I would. That deeply saddens me about myself.

on a lighter note, I just took down my Christmas tree- It only took 15 minutes but I have been dreading doing it. I just love all the holiday decorations that i always think i will be sad when they are down. Truth is, its a huge relief!

I am spending the rest of the day cuddling and playing and hopefully getting the finishing things done for the jewelry/pampered chef party on saturday.

lada dida

Its wednesday- hump day. And thats what it feels like...nothing much going on today (although Dre and Amanda coming home from the hospital is pretty big news.) WE are hanging out at home- out of the blizzardly coldness outside. We are feeling much much better and are hoping that by tomorrow, we will feel 100%. I am hoping to go either tomorrow or friday and take vaughn to Barbs to meet the kids and get her aquainted before monday. I am slowly becoming more okay with it. I just keep praying for peace with going back to work, nto that I will love it, or would ever want to leave her, but that i am at peace with what i have to do for the moment and that if i am supposed to be home with her- that God will make that possible when its time.

She is becoming so much fun- she has really taken an interest in her toys in the last week or so. its the new challenge for her to pull off all her link-a-doos from the play mat, and then she smiles and looks so proud. Its the cutest thing ive ever seen! Her afternoon naps have lengthened quite a bit, but she is only taking one real nap during the day- so i suppose that is normal. She's now sleeping around 4 hours, which lets me get somethings done. Not alwyas in one stretch, sometimes she wakes up and is hungry, but a little milk and she's back to sleep. She really has such a huge personality- it is a joy to watch it develope.

Play time!

We're still recovering from our colds, and still sleeping most of the day (vaughn-elise,anyways) but this evening, i thought it would be fun to pull back out her play mat. We tried this about a month ago and it scared her, alot! So i thought we would try it again as she is really paying attention to things and she loves it! She likes to lay on her stomach and look at the design on the mat or look up at her "link-a-doos". She has found it fun to grab ahold and pull until they fall down. Im scared it will whack her in the face, but she seems to be enjoying it! Its so fun watching her pay attention to things and really enjoy the things she's doing!!

We are missing Andre and seeing him change. I am hoping we feel better soon so i can get my aunt meg time in!!!

sad day...

We are all sick- vaughn hasnt hardly woken up all day, we cant breathe, the cough..it stinks. I missed seeing andre today but also didnt want to risk getting him sick. I am hoping we all feel better VERY soon.... :(

What a BIG day!!

The day started off a little sleepy- vaughn didnt sleep well, therefore, neither did I. I was ready to go to church and have get a little break. We got all dressed up and when we got to church I thought it was strange that my parents werent there. I got our seats and got vaughn out of her carseat and then Janet Hircock came up to me and said " congratulations auntie." And i just smiled and said " not for two more days!" And she said " what?? No one called you?? Amanda had her baby last night!!!" I was in complete disbelief , but rushed as fast as i could to the hospital and there he was, the most gorgeous, sweet, beautiful little latino baby boy I had ever seen with his big lips and beautiful complection. I fell in love!! he is trully adorable. I could just look at him all day! I will post more pictures tomorrow when i get some better ones of his face.

It was also Maria's birthday so we had dinner (sagga aka lasagna) and cake with "frinkles" in gabs language and a good time was had all around. I am on carb overload from the past two days of pasta, but we have had some delicious food so I cant complain. Happy birthday Maria. Matthew says he is now dating " An older women." (since she is 20 and he wont be til may.)

Here is vaughn in her pretty new dress she got for Christmas. She looks like a beauty queen, and she is.

Gabriela- just being silly, sleep deprived gabs:) what a doll.

Vaughn-elise's cousin who was born the day after her is in the hospital with some problems and we went to see them (they are just on the other side of the hospital from amanda.) Poor guy! I cant imagine vaughn being in there, with all those tubes hooked up to her.. Its so sad to see him in there. They should get to go home tomorrow after some tests. We will keep him in our prayers. and will check on him tomorrow when we go in to see how much andre has grown. The third muskateer has arrived!!!